Dun mind my few "emo" posts. Sorry if i post nothing ytd. Im just feeling uncontented with what i have and what im going through ryte nw. Painful, hurting. My mind seemed to be wholly taken up with reminiscences of past gaiety. It was just an anecdote. It daunt me in some ways though. I can't keep up and move on. I really really feel like shouting my lungs out and burst in tears. Im just a hapless girl, always being fooled and treated like a piece of thrash. Yes, i do accept the fact that im born to be like this, but i just can't stand this interminable life of suffering. Im trying to be narcissistic. I dun wana ramble and hurt myself again. I do hope that the people surrounding me will motivate and push me hard to move on. I dun wanna always be the laggard who's always left behind. I just hope that someday, this miserable quandary that im in will just be history.