my endless story;

2010-12-25T13:15:00.000-08:00

Aww isn't the picture above sweet? Elena and Stefan make a great couple. Hekhekhek I love them. I wish there's prom night next year for graduation. Well, FAT HOPES I MUST SAY. Ok hi good afternoon readers. First and foremost, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL CHRISTIANS! And also, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO FATTAH! Have a blast and don't grow taller anymore okay. HAHAHA :D

Alright, my days have been rather tough. Tough because I have to endure staying at home doing nothing when there's loads of homework that have to be done. HO HO HO just see how lazy I am now. My gosh I should really really stop being like this. O LEVELS NEXT YEAR AND I'M TOTALLY NOT UP FOR THE CHALLENGE. How can I change??????? Sometimes I feel disappointed seeing myself like this, not wanting to make the effort and always depending on others. I've really got to get myself back up and I want to strive for the best and get to the best Polytechnic, Insya'Allah. I've wanted to get into the culinary course in TP. But as usual, fat hopes. Ok I can't always say liddat. I've got to have confidence in myself. I'm always lacking in confidence. I just don't know why. I should be having tuitions but yeah, my family won't be able to afford it though, unlike other families. All so rich. Hmm.

As for today, I'm currently not doing anything productive, yet again. I'm not like others who can go out and have fun everyday. I want mama to be stricter to me actually, if not I'll still be the lazy pig I am now. And yeah, I'm glad that I can chiong my O levels with Zul next year. Hekhek. And hopefully we'll both get to our own poly that we choose to go to. I'm sure he can make it, but what about me? See, I'm lacking of confidence again. Aigoo. Alright, plan for this Monday is to go and catch 2 movies with Zul \m/ It's on him since he already got his salary. Alhamdulillah. I'll become a good girl and stay at home for these 2 days, that is today and tomorrow so that mama will let me out on Monday. Hehe. Ok gonna update my Twitter again. Paipai cupcakes! (:

2010-12-18T21:49:00.000-08:00

Dear Allah, please help me go through all this sufferings. I'm crying while typing this out. I really don't know how to deal with life anymore. Please help me dear Allah. I can't take it anymore. I wish there's someone who can save me, and I hope that it's Zulhairi but now, he's the main cause of all these. I just want happiness in my life, not dullness. Is it really just how my life is supposed to be or have I chose the wrong person to love? I really love him and I just want the best for both of us. I know I've made so many mistakes to him, and I'm really sorry about it. When I apologize, I really mean it. I may not be the best he's ever had, but he's the best that I've ever had and letting go will be the hardest thing to do, and that is why I'd rather waste all my tears and try my very best to save this relationship which I really treasure the most, and I want it to last till we're married, Insya'Allah :'(

Dear Allah, please lead me to the right path. I'm confused and clueless. I don't know what's happening to me. I want 2011 to be even better than this and I really want to live a happy life and love the right person, which is Zulhairi. I want him to know that he's the one who lightens up my life back when darkness falls. I want us to be happy again, not always fighting and throwing tantrums at each other. All I want is a happy and healthy relationship, that's all. And not forgetting, I want a happy family which I doubt I could have like before, but I just want all of us to be happy, and not forgetting a long lasting relationship with all my friends that I'll surely won't forget. Dear Allah, I just want the best for my life. They say happy girls are the prettiest, and I just want to be one of them. I hope you would grant me all my wishes dear Allah.

Amin.

2010-12-15T23:00:00.000-08:00

"The joy in our faces are just priceless."

Hehe hi readers (well if I have any HAHA). I is a very very bored girl here. Hmm, see the picture up there? That's 3E3'10. K siapa tanya hehehe. 2010 is nearly coming to an end, but I'll surely miss this year because this is the year where I totally changed my attitude when I meet new and awesome people. 3E3'10, a class that's not so sociable with other classes, BUT WE'RE BONDED AS ONE. Other classes might say we're lame or anti social or whatever shit, but what we know is, we're a family. Even if I've met new people, I've never ever forgotten the old ones. And yes, I'll still be meeting this awesome people in my class next year. 4E3 FTW!!! HAHA :D

Okay, today was like any other typical day. BUT, I met up with Hany♥ to TRY and complete our holiday assignments. BUT FAILED. It's been so long since we met and we kept talking and talking about our everyday lives, and I enjoyed her company very much. Thanks for the day babe♥ Well so far, I've been too lazy to do my assignments, and this really cannot go on. I need something or someone to motivate me please! :( Oh, I think I need a teacher to come to my house and check on my assignments everyday. That will kick away my laziness. Hahaha shitttttt what should I do now dammit!!! Okay, flea market at Scape coming up! Oh but before that, I'll be cooking at Kartin's house along with Sarah Sim on Sunday wooooo can't wait!!! After that, I'll meet Zul at his workplace to pass to him the food that I've cooked specially for him cheybedah HAHA.

Gosh, there's Band BBQ tomorrow. Ok, many not coming for it, so me too. Furthermore it's at Sembawang Park. Damn that place gives me the creeps *shivers* Okay it's already 11pm now. I should be sleeping by now!!! Goodnight folks :>

2010-12-13T01:13:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 14TH MONTH MUHAMMAD ZULHAIRI! ♥

Alhamdulillah, we made it through once more. I'm glad and thankful to Allah that you're always there for me when I needed you. It's okay if my tears are wasted, as long as I don't lose you and that's already fine with me. You made me look forward to the future and not reminisce the past, like how I used to be last time when I almost gave up on love. You're the one I need now, and you light up my life even without you realising it.

When I had doubts, you cleared it for me. Once you said, "I already got you and you are already perfect for me. I can't imagine life without you" I took that as a promise that you won't ever leave me hanging to dry out in the wind. And yes, you did made a promise and I was glad. We fought almost everyday, but we stood up for our own rights and pushed the fights aside. It wasn't what I expected you to be as I thought you would still want to put your ego as your number 1 priority, but I was glad you made a choice of not wanting to hurt me more. I'm very very glad now. I hope you really mean what you say.

Happy 14th Month again Samdol (:

"Love is like nothing else on this earth, but only when it is shared with someone wonderful like you."

2010-12-12T16:22:00.000-08:00

Hi I miss you. Tomorrow 14th hor? Hekhekhek. Can't wait. And so long I never take pictures with you!!!!!!!! Hahahahahhahahahah k I've always prayed to Allah that hopefully, we would last forever because I still love you like how i did 424 days ago. Haha hehe huhu hoho muahahaha God willing we'll last forever (: But ah, you ah, don't perangai2 with me for nothing eh. Perangai bitch sia. HEHE

And lately, I've been having so many bad dreams. Dreams that I thought may come true. But Zul assured me that all of those negative things will never come true. Alamak, I wasn't so confident of it because one of my bad dreams came true last time. Hopefully won't lah huh. I've been having this urge of walking down the streets of Orchard at night because the scenery would be sooooooo beautiful with the Christmas decorations all over the place. Mama says she want to take as many pictures as possible. Hahahahaha nak ajer ehhhhh. Maybe I should visit Zul at his workplace someday. HAHAHAHAHA I'm sure he would be utterly shocked.

I don't know what else to say. This is what I hate when I post on blogger. I always have nothing to say in the end. HA HA HA k till I post again yah :D

2010-12-11T12:23:00.000-08:00

Hi I'm back! HAHA it's been so so longggggggg huh. Okay, I can assure you that I'll post something maybe... every weekend? Haha and I don't know what happened to my Tumblr. Gosh one of a kind layout. Go see! That's why I've decided to post here. Weeehoooo this coming monday is the big day<3 I can't wait huahua okay I talk like a some kind of a primary 6 kid. Hahaha okay and I'm requesting for more outings with friends please!!!!!!!!!!!! Imma bored girl rotting at home macam nangka busuk :P

It's been awhile since I wrote my life stories here. I miss talking to myself, even though there's Facebook to express all my thoughts. Alah later people say, "who cares?!" HAHAHAHAH now Facebook's so boring, seriously. Oh and I had a fun time with classmates last thursday at Marina Barrage<3 Plan more outings alright!!! I don't know what else to say errr hahahah you can really see how bored I am now. I shall go and check out my what the hell is wrong with my Tumblr now. HAHA.

2010-08-06T22:21:00.000-07:00

So firstly, it was Sonore V on 5th August 2010, followed by National Day Celebration the next day, which was yesterday. I had so much fun, laughter, tears and all sort of stuffs, but that was during Sonore. We practised hard, and our efforts didn't just went down the drain. It was worth it though. But when I heard remarks from seniors and alumni, I think we could do better in the future, InsyaAllah. Oh and, this will be the last Sonore performance for me. I did enjoy it with all of the band members, but some were really fucking irritating, especially the sec 1s. Hahaha. So after everything, met Zul at Al-ameen and ate. It was his treat. Yay. And I slept in the bus comfortably right beside him on the way back. Thank you for lending me your shoulders. (:

Woke up still feeling lethargic, eyes were puffy and small due to lack of sleep. Right, so for National Day Celebration, super fun in the morning with all the games being held but I had to go off early for the concert rehearsal. In the first place, it was awesome seeing all of them singing and jumping with enthusiasm, but unfortunately, the VP wasn't happy with the way WE, students celebrate National Day. Hell yeah, she was such a major turn off for all of us. And there I was, up on stage, trying real hard to control my anger. Me and Sarah should be the ones who are in control of the concert, not you, "CUTE VP!" -.- WE'VE NOT EVEN SANG THE LAST SONG AND THERE YOU ARE, BLABBERING TO THE STUDENTS LIKE WE ARE SOME KIND OF UNCIVILISED BARBARIANS. Get a life lah, seriously. Aku gantung kepala babi depan rumah kau baru tahu. Menyirap darah aku. Oh I know why she acted that way. Pinangan kene tolak kot. Still not married yet, stressed up till bald in the middle. HAHAHAH okay whatever, now everything's done and over with. But still, it's disturbing my mind everytime. K stop.

Tomorrow, planning to meet Zul to persuade him to watch "Sayang You Can Dance" that was shown on Suria channel just now. And I ain't pretty sure if there's homework to be completed. Well whatever, not gonna do it but instead, I'll revise for common tests. (Y) Okay, seems like I got to have a GOOD REST for now so that my eyes wouldn't look so puffy. Alright, goodnight folks!

Heading for uncharted water.

2010-08-01T18:20:00.000-07:00

Its funny how I get so insecure easily, finding it hard to believe that you stay the same as before. But then I realised, the way you talk to me, the way you look at me, the way you make me feel, it was never the same. I wonder why. We used to be THIS close, now we're totally falling apart. It's understandable that you're having your prelims now, and that I'm surely giving you ample space for you to fit in and get comfortable, but it's awfully hurtful to know that you seem to be avoiding me in some kind of a way. It's pretty obvious that my attitude suck that much, but that's not the reason for you to be this way. It's good enough that I'm willing to be patient with you, no, not only patient, very very patient. But hey, don't always take my patience for granted. Everything has a limit okay.

Sometimes, I just don't understand what you really want from me. Now I find it hard to believe that you're still the one I knew before. Now I feel awkward talking to you. It seems like I'm talking to someone I just knew for the past 2 days. Where's the old you? I don't see the real you anymore. You're faking everything already. Gosh, I hate to say this but I'm tired of you being the kind of fuck care type of person towards me now. Please, be the old you again.

Yours truly.

2010-07-29T01:47:00.000-07:00

It's crazy, right? To love someone who hurts
you? NO. It's crazier to think that someone who
hurts you, love you.

Finally, I'm back here. Apologies for not updating guys. Been busy, been through alot lately. I wouldn't be updating that much, but hey, look on the bright side, I will still update. Oh, life's been giving me tests, lots and lots of tests. Test on papers, test on love, well gotta say everything. I reckon everything's gonna be fine soon. Ok shut it. Back to why i want to update so much is because I really miss using blogger. See, I appreciate blogger so much. Still holding on to that idiot boy even though I've been hurt. Hey, I just want to make you happy, that's all. But if you can't accept me for who I am, then it's better for you to leave me alone. AHHHHH SHIIITTTY COW DUNGGGG. Eh I miss singing with you so much. Ah k wtf shut it. Anyways, common tets are just round the corner. Wow, time flies. Sonore V and national day coming reaaal soon. Nervoussss. Friends, do support me k thanks (PROMOTING SELF) (Y) HAHA. Okay there's so many things to say actually, but yeah, time's running out. Hopefully tomorrow I could update again, InsyaAllah. And I've always pray hard that everything's going to be alright in the end. Amin. :')

To those whom I've not linked yet, will link you all soon okay. Thanks and love you guys ;)

Oh, and happy birthday to Mohd Faris Bin Haji :D

eh , sape seyh si menyebok psl connection kau . hahahahah. Do you find this person irritating? O.o

2010-06-18T05:45:00.001-07:00

AHAHA. Entah la. Asek nak jager tepi kain orang jerrrrr.

So what do you want to know?

Julian.

2010-06-18T05:43:00.001-07:00

Huh? You've got the wrong person dude. Never i my life have i known someone named Julian. o.O

So what do you want to know?

do you other relationship than zuhairi.because i certainly do

2010-06-17T05:55:00.001-07:00

nope, not at all. my heart only belongs to him. may i know who are you? (:

So what do you want to know?

do you have any connection with people other than zuhari?

2010-06-17T00:46:00.001-07:00

erm, what kind of connection you want? anw the name's zulhairi. :)

So what do you want to know?

oh him.any other special?

2010-06-16T08:55:00.001-07:00

yesyes, my family and bestfriends.

So what do you want to know?

hi ! ;D

2010-06-16T08:54:00.001-07:00

hello there! :D

So what do you want to know?

You love all?omg

2010-06-15T07:01:00.003-07:00

YES, INCLUDING YOU! :D

So what do you want to know?

Do you have someone special?

2010-06-15T07:01:00.001-07:00

Yes i do. And that is Zulhairi :)

So what do you want to know?

omg , xia zhua ni . I'm not hany.

2010-06-15T05:34:00.001-07:00

you always call me xia zhua ni what!! and i know your way of writing laaa. HAHA ^^

So what do you want to know?

hiiiii u so pretty . :DD

2010-06-15T04:33:00.001-07:00

HAHAHA so not. but thanks (:

So what do you want to know?

Do you love anybody?

2010-06-15T04:32:00.001-07:00

I love everybody! :D

So what do you want to know?

What's your favorite type of flower?

2010-06-15T01:47:00.001-07:00

Roses (:

So what do you want to know?

2010-05-30T16:00:00.000-07:00

I'm currently inactive in Blogger, and i'll be updating on Tumblr instead. I'll be back here in a few weeks' time, so just stay tune (:

*To those who wants be linked, i'll still link you here. ;)

EXAM FEVER!!!!!!

2010-05-08T15:05:00.000-07:00

Yello!!!!! Wow, im FINALLY UPDATING huh? HAHAHA. Ok i'm missing this asshole up here. He's heading to johor later to celebrate mama's day with his family. WAH, AKU NAK AYAM PANGGANG!!! HAHA. Speaking of mama, i miss talking to his mum. I don't even know when cn i get to meet her again. Oh well, nevermind. After exams ;) Now's the MYE FEVER PERIOD. Yessss, omg i've been really chiong-ing on important subjects such as math and chem. Bio's alr over, and i swear punye swear to the maximum, it was VERY VERY TOUGH!!! Ok i'm gonna die. Watch me. HAHA. 9 more pprs to go. I gotta persevere man. I've yet to revise my malay lit and the exam's on monday. GREAT. I gotta stop procrastinating and start revising man. Fb's making me stick to the laptop, plus tumblr too. Not forgetting, BLOGGER TOO. -.- And ytd, i went for a group study at the lib with siti kartini bte sapuwan, mia sara choo and nur amirah bte suratman. We talked bout ALOT AND ALOT OF STUFFS. But it was great though. We had some touching and sentimental story-telling. I swear i would want to go for another group study with you guys again!!!! Well we bumped into sooo many familiar faces la huh. Even my asshole was there with his friends. HAHAHA. At 6 plus, me and kartini went to fork and spoon to have our dinner. Saw syaa kerchiq, my long lost primary sch best friend. We hugged each other in the middle of F&S. HAHA. I asked her alot and alot of qns, and she changed drastically man. Syaa, kau dah mls eh nak gy skola? Naughty eh. Hahaha. Ahhhh, and spaghetti bolognese was HEAVEN \m/ I love the spicyness. Kartini and i laughed alot when we recalled back our past time, that is in primary 1, where we didn't friend each other!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH lmao. We felt paisey when we actually told it to each other. Hahaha. She kept mentioning about Mr Monk-ey until i fed-up alr. HAHA, nehh, i kid i kid. But overall, having dinner with her was so much fun. Wanna go for another round, mrs motherly kartini? HAHA xD

Ok, imma start on my revision now. So long guys! Aku love korang sumer! :D

Listen to what my heart has to say,

2010-04-25T02:37:00.000-07:00

It's true that nobody's perfect
all the time, but everyone's perfect sometimes,
even you.
♥

Hello everyone!!!!!! Ok irritating. My blog seems kinda dead though, and someone asked me to update it. Hah, here you go bootch! Haha. So, my weekdays, or rather school days, were quite hectic and i wasn't really into school as there were some misunderstandings occuring. Yeah, was disappointed, miserable, sad, bla bla bla. Well i managed to talk things out with him and i got a hug!!!!! WAH, i wish it was longer than that sia. HAHAHA. K enough. MYE's reaching soon, and this sucks alot ok!!!!!! I wished we only had 1 major exam. Grrrr, having 4 major exams is just A WASTE OF TIME!!!!! *points middle finger* Whoah, now's alr 2.27 am, and i've yet to be closing my eyes. Greaaaaaaattttt. How cn i wake up early tmr to go for a jog when i'm still not asleep yet?! GILER. Haha, omg. My tongue's suddenly craving for bubbletea, well oreo milo, to be specific. But sadly, i can't slurp on cold drinks for the time being. ASTHMATIC GIRL WHAT. Ah, whatever with that -.- Will be heading to bugis tmr, i guess? I'll have to see what time papa gets home tmr. Aku nak ketok dierh habes-habesan!!!! HEHEHEHE. Eh i miss bengap. He's already sleeping like one bloody cb liddat. Wah, he slept super early man. You'll have to make up to it tmr la huh bie!!!! HAHA WOOOO I LOVE THIS PART~ And i guess i really have to finish up on my hmwks because there are tons and tons of it lying in my bag. Speaking of bag, i'm gonna compel papa and make him buy for me a brand new bag!!! WEEEEEE~! Ok stop it with those sounds -.- Aight i'm off. Wish me luck on waking up early tmr!!! :D

Fearless.

2010-04-18T15:35:00.000-07:00

“This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness
intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to
warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships
to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you
doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete
your life.”

Hello earthlings~~~! Sorry for not updating frequently. As you know, imma busy woman yaww~ HAHA. Ok lets start the talking. On thursday, i attended an event at causeway point, well to be specific, it was the kampong history exhibition. The n.e ambassadors and myself became the history guides of the day and we were very honoured to have welcomed the mps from various places such as sembawang, admiralty, woodlands and many more. We even got to hear stories from Mr Hawazi Daipi about his past and his way of living in his childhood days. Wooooo~ We did 2 shifts (dah mcm keje eh HAHA), one was in the afternoon and the other one was at night. It was tiring indeed, but we had fun! It was worth standing for hours. I managed to capture few pictures, and all are uploaded on fb. Do check it out yeah ;)

Friday. In the morning we had commendation. The n.e ambassadors and myself went up the stage to receive our certificate of participation in the event. We also won the merly and lyo bear. Very cute i tell you :D It was embarassing to be on stage la even though it's been almost 3 years im in that school. Hahahaha. I went back home straightly after school and prepared all the things for speech day. I was very nervous indeed. But overall, speech day was GREAT!!! I didnt capture any exciting moments though. T.T I guess it was the bestest event i've participated in so far and it was memorable too! (Y) I hope speech day would be even more exciting in the upcoming years. HEHE :D

Oh, and now, i'm currently bored and lying down on the sofa while typing and resting my laptop on my thighs. See, i'm giving a brief description on my posture right now. HAHAHA. I'm having too much hmwks lately and i always don't get enough sleep. Luckily bengap's always there to accompany me on my lonely nights. HEHEHEHE *mentel laugh* Now i have to do my coursework, as well as a reflection on the event that i've attended. Ms mas called me ytd and told me to submit a reflection by today at 5pm. Urgh i should have said no to her in the first place. OMG I REGRETTED SAYING YES LA WAHLAO!!!!!! Stupid. >:( Yeah, imma start on my hmwks real soon. I don't wanna procrastinate any further. MYE's just around the corner. Gosh, i gotta start revising!!!! I have to put the irrelevant things aside, and textbks, as well as notes should be right infront of me now. I know i cn do it, with perseverance and self-discipline, i will succeed (Y)!!!! :D

The greatest gift of all.

2010-04-13T22:45:00.000-07:00

Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.

Sense of guilt. :|

2010-04-13T15:50:00.000-07:00

Happy 6th Monthsary Bengap♥!

I'm sorry that i can't spend ample time with you today, and i promise that i'll make it up to you somehow.

Love you ♥

Well hello there. Today is tuesday, and i'm rotting at home like nangke busok liddat. HAHA. On a lighter note, i didn't attend school as i wasn't feeling well. To be specific, i'm currently having asthma, flu, and prolonged cough. I HATE BEING SICK. T.T Early in the morning, i texted bengap that i won't be attending school and he was disappointed as today marks our 6th month together. My heart sank when he showed me his pathetic sad face. But thank God he understood my situation and encouraged me to get well soon. Awwww~ So at 8 plus, papa accompanied me to the polyclinic to have a check up and collect the medicines plus mc. Oh, and i'm exempted from p.e for a week. Ok what the hell? Pa requested for it. AH DAMN LA. And i can say that the queue at the polyclinic was veeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyy long and tiring, until pa went to sleep for awhile. HAHA SEMPAT!!! Well i bumped into some familiar faces, actually only 2 uh, which were fathin and mus. I was at the clinic for 5 long hours i guess? Sickening man. And for the first time, i received 2 inhalers, and one of it was for daily usage, and that also means i have to bring it to school everyday. WAH, SO UNGLAM. So straightly after i went back home, i took my medicine and i was off to sleep. Somemore it was raining. Wah, doing a perfect activity at a perfect time \m/ Few hours later, woke up, and texted bengap. He was very very bored in school without me. HAHA padan muker kau babi!! But i hate to see him liddat lah. Just wait for tomorrow ok? I'll be coming and you cn stare at my pretty ugly face for as long as you want. WOOO \m/ \m/

Ok i feel like buying something for bengap as a sign of apology for not being able to meet him today. What should i buy eh? I bought sneakers on his birthday, and now i already ran out of ideas. Wah great. -.- Well i guess i gotta catch up on some hmwks that are still left undone, and are dued long long ago. HAHA lazy pig. I'm off for now. Bye.

Behind it all.

2010-04-06T21:13:00.000-07:00

Trying really really hard to do this one fucking simple thing, even though i'm on the verge of crying. He's being silent, since just now. This is really hurting me, deep down. I just don't know what to do. Gosh, help me :'((((((((((((((

It's not what i meant to do.

2010-04-06T19:07:00.000-07:00

I’m sorry of being so emotional
I’m sorry of being so possessive
I’m sorry that I cry for you
I’m sorry because I can’t live without you

I’m sorry for the tears you shed
I’m sorry for the damage I made
I’m sorry I’ve made you sick
Sorry I hurt you so deep

I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights
I’m sorry for each and every fight
I’m sorry for your pain & agony
I’m sorry for the missing harmony

I’m sorry for my selfish love
I’m sorry for not caring enough
I’m sorry for my restlessness
I’m sorry for the losing grace

I’m sorry that I made you mad
I’m sorry darling you are so sad
Sorry for not giving you any happiness
Sorry because it’s my disgrace

I’m sorry for thinking of you so very much
I’m sorry I always miss your touch
I’m sorry of being so mad about you
I’m sorry for my every blue
I’m sorry of being so immature
I’m sorry now that can’t be cured
I’m sorry of being myself
I’m sorry that I’ve failed

I’m sorry and sorry again
I’m sorry of being insane
But believe me that I love you
Should I say sorry for that too? :'(

To err is human, to forgive is unusual.

2010-04-03T22:36:00.000-07:00

Be careful, those fat fingers are gonna grab your big nice sexy butts. HAHA -.-

Ok hie. Hello. I'm posting something for today. Well, yay! -.- Oh, err, ok, so i went to the library to catch up on some COURSEWORK. Wow, can't believe the fact that the due date's on monday. Grrreeeaaaattttt. Stanley, as well as Bengap were there. Well stanley is my FnN partner, whereas Bengap's just being a calefare. Baek! \m/ HAHA. We talked, laughed, cried (HAHA), pinch each other (no, stanley's not involved), and many more. Ok so it started with me and stanley searching for recipes. Must put minced pork and chicken breast ah stanley HAHAHAHAHA ^^ :P He did the headings for the time plan, ingredient list, etc. The end product- STILL THE HEADINGS. Whoah, fantastic!!!!!!!!!!! Hey but we did our coursework man.... by facebook-ing. HAH SIAKSIAK. But we will for sure communicate and interact through msn for further updates on the coursework ah stanley. LOL. Ah ley (stanley) headed home first, while Bengap and i stayed for awhile. Si irrits nie, mintak kene jitak i tell you. Pfft.

Oh, fantastically fabulous huh Bengap. Just because i didnt reply you ought to be doing the same thing to me. Bgs. KEEP IT UP UH EH. But what do you expect man? I wasn't in a hippy yippy mood. You can't blame me. Oh, i guess you loooovvvvvvveeeee to see the ugly side of me huh? You showed me your ugly side, and i'll show you my uglier side. Simple as that. I hope this will satisfy you in any ways la ok.

DANGGG, am i doing the right thing? It sucks when you have give in so easily. You feel guilty instantly, and you'll always be the one who apologise. The longer you don't say or do anything, the longer it takes for both parties to be back on the right track. Ah, i don't feel good about this. Maybe i should just give in, or should i just shut the fuck up? Help :(
Eh i love you ok, no matter what happens. ♥

LONG WEEKEND?!!?!?!?!!??!??!!? -.-

2010-04-02T22:19:00.000-07:00

HELLO! Sorry for the so called "hiatus" la huh. Been very busy with school though. So yeah, i had sports carnival that was held in school just yesterday. Ok so the rest of the pictures are uploaded in fb. View it if you want. Im glad that blue house finally clinched the 3rd position and it was a great improvement. Well basically i didnt participate in anything as im plain lazy to do so, but you'll see me in action next year la huh ^^ So im currently doing my malay literature project, and it sucks ok. Bleh maty dokkkk. And you guys should know that im saving up my pocket money everyday becaaaaaaaauuuussseee...... well ok i shouldn't mention about it, later some idiotic bengap will know. HAHA :P Ok i guess imma continue with my assignments as it is due TOMORROW. How fast can that be man?!!!?!??!!?!?!? Oh great, and i havent even touch on my other hmwks \m/ Keep it up eh. Well teachers think that this LONG WEEKENDS are FREAKING LONG like the june hols huh. Toopid cb. Ok bye.

Everything is never as it seems.

2010-03-27T20:22:00.000-07:00

I still remember singing this song during the sec 3 camp at night, along with the others, and i suddenly cried. Everyone around me was asking what's wrong, and i said nothing. Well i cried for a stupid reason, i was missing that bloody bengap of mine. HAHAHA STUPID :X But yeah i was really sad ya know. Ok stop it. Like as if people care~ :P

Suppppppppp guys?!?!?!!!?! APOLOGIES FOR NOT UPDATING FREQUENTLY. Busy with school, hmwks, projects, assignments, etc. Well i had quite a hectic schedule this week because i had to actually finish up my holiday assignments that weren't completed on time. YES, everybody actually agrees that the holidays were wayyyyy too short for too many hmwks rigggghhht??!?! And yeah, nothing much happened this week. Frankly, i cn say that every week is wayyyyyy boring. Mcm no life gitu. Ah heck, whatever. I was actually planning to celebrate dina's belated bday at her house as she invited me to her party. Sadly i had to attend kenduri at auntie's crib -.- So my plan was ruined. Pfft. THANKS ALOT, PA. Ok i fought with bengap again. WTF!!!! I think i started it, or maybe its simply because of a seeeetuuuupidddd reason. Yeah, greeeaaaaatttttttt. -______-" Now my hippy yippy mood is gone! URGH. Ok should i apologise, or should i not?!! My god, SOALAN.... -.- Ah whatever. Sry guys if this post seems pointless. Well i know every of my posts are POINTLESS. And yeah, you're just wasting time reading this. Booo. Ok i have to sort things out with him now. Bye.

Tak masok akal.

2010-03-18T22:49:00.000-07:00

Got this from his fb. Punya la nak step cute!!!! Mcm cb eh. HAHA. -____-"

Alahai, i miss this bengap even though we met just hours ago. He'll be off for his np camp tmr. Ah, naaaaaaaaabei. Looking at his photo makes me wana puke for goodness sake. HAHA, chey fake. ALAH, cn you dont go to that stupid sec 1 np camp like pretty plssssssssss? _l_ Ok maybe i should stop talking bout him so as to make me feel better.

ANW, i kinda feel crappy right now, for no particular reason. Yeah, aku so weird la hor hor. K whatever. Tmr's schedule is fixed! I'm definitely gonna finish up on my bloody hmwks that i havent even touch. Great. But im cnfident enough that i cn complete 1/2 of it by tmr, but with perseverance and confidence. CHEH BAH, aper eh aku bbual -.- Cousin will be coming over to my place as she needs my sis help. Sis will be the tutor of the day ^^ And its good that he's going to camp so he wont disturb me in any way. HAHAHAHA. Tpi gelisah benoh aku nnt. PFFT. Ok i needa go and jemor kain yg belambak yg mampos. OH, AND BEHAVE YOURSELF AT CAMP BIE. Biler org suro tdo kao tdo. Jgn maen bola, bangang! HAHA. I'LL FUCKING MISS YOU LA BENGAP!!! :'(

A great evening.

2010-03-16T22:01:00.000-07:00

Yeah, bowling was awesome, thanks to the most awesomest people who were present. HEHE. Ok gmbr yg last paling kekek, bcos im referring to the two gay gangsters on my right, KHAI and HIDZIR. HAHAHAHA. Babi, siket nyer kekekkkkkkkkk. That day, luck wasnt on my side la huh. I kept losing, but managed to not be the last of the last. HAHA YEAHHH. \m/ So actually our meeting time was at 1.30, but instead, we met the complete group at 2.45. WHOAH, baek kn. We took the shuttle bus to orchid country club, but to our surprise, there was a bowling competition held there, -.- so we bus-ed back to yishun mrt. Bodoh bodoh. Naseb baek free. We walked to safra and yeah as usual, we laughed alot and alot. Hidzir was so arrogant when he bumped into his bangla friends. Kau nie, dah luperh plak ngn kwn kau yg dah byk berjase ngn kau eh. HAHAHAHA. Ok, as soon as we reached safra, we went to the counter and booked our lanes. But sadly we had to wait for 45 mins as there was also a competition held there. PFFT -.-

So while waiting, we went to 7 eleven and had a light lunch. I ate the chicken spaghetti bolognese \m/ Well looks disgusting but tastes great ok. Then bla bla bla, went back to the place and started our games. Embarrassing siak, being the "un-pro" one. Cb. The ball went backwards when i wanted to throw it to the front. NABEI!!! PAISEH ABES. We played 2 games, and i thgt i only had to pay $3+, but instead, EACH OF US had to pay $5.40. Bgs la tuh eh. Then saw din, dina's ex. Ok he kept staring mcm tak penah npk org. Mataey kau kat tepi kau tanak stare -.- Whatever. Okay then everything ended at 7 plus. We chilled at the entrance for awhile and went back at around 8. Hidzir was late for his shift siaaaaaa, so he decided to take a leave. HAHAHA. -.- Overall, it was AWESOME TO THE MAXIMA! I sukerh, you! HEHE. Well guys, PICNIC EH NEXT! :DD

Me + You = Love

2010-03-14T20:00:00.000-07:00

Eh hie hie. I just came back from band camp ytd. Okay, i was riggggggggghhhhht all along. Camp was freaking &^%#@!*%$ i tell you. Truthfully, it wasn't a memorable one unlike the one i had in 2008. Cause of the unmemorable camp: SEC 1S. Pfft -.- Incooperative, talkative, selfish, stubborn, rude and many more ah. Even though all of them looked innocent (that's equals to idiot HAHAHA), they have real bad shitty ass attitudes i tell you. URGH, some activities were cancelled due to the noise level. We had treasure hunt on friday night, then wash up and slept. Well we actually had to have water bomb and ya know, SOME PEOPLE are just uncontrollable la kn, so it was cancelled. BAEK. -.- Then wash up and it was sleeping tyme. We slept in the music room. Wow, how nice eh. Aircon somemore. Huahuahua. I didnt sleep until 2am. Busy texting bengap. Check2 dierh yg tdo dulu. Eeeeyerrrr. But i was glad that i got to wish him at 12am. Lega hati aku. (:

2nd day, had morning exercise after bathing, breakfast, foot drills, band pracs, captains' ball, and some freaking incidents. Very scary i tell you. I was panic stricken upon seeing it. But it isn't appropriate to say it here. Sorry guys. We ended the camp with blowing bubbles. Fun eh fun. HEHE. Then bengap fetch me. Alahai, sanggop siak. Thank you eh (: Coincidentally it was our 5th month ♥ HEHEHE. Suker sia nie pmpan. LOL -.- While going back home, my stomach made some funny sounds. It was loud sia. Then suddenly, i received two LONDON CHOCOROLLS from him. Mcm tawu2 jer eh aku lapar. HAHAHAHAAH. I went straight home as both of us pokai abes punya. Rabak sikk. But thank goodness mama prepared some meal for me. WEEEEE~ Aper lagy, aku lantak smpai habes ah! (Y)

Baby,
No one in this wide world could touch the feelings we share;
To the seconds I spend with you, nothing can compare.
You've opened my eyes and heart just enough and let me live,
You've changed my world with magic and the kindness that you give.
My heart was broken, and I thought love was so far away,
But you came into my life and showed me a better day.

Heartbreak, loss and misery were all I ever knew,
Until someone showed me happiness and that someone was you.
Your gentle words and loving arms lift me up when I am down,
And, baby, with all you've done for me you've turned my world around.
Your love is so consistent, like the waves that break on shore,
And with every day my love for you still grows, just more and more.

~ Kimberly Lynn Albrecht

Happy belated 5th Monthsary Zulhairi.

131oo9, forever more ♥

We're just playing a stupid game.

2010-03-11T22:32:00.000-08:00

Just updating to keep this blog alive. I'm in no hippy yippy mood. I feel like everything's tearing apart. I feel stupid for not being able to make a proper and definite decision. It sucks when the cause of a fight was just from a stupid reason. I suck at love. I can't take risks. This is just not right. I let him down, and vice versa. I don't want this to go on.

It's a hardcore fact that i'm egoistic and self-centered, but i'm trying my best to push all these attitudes aside, and the best is to just throw them all away, but it takes time. If you can't accept the fact then too bad. I'm trying hard to understand you in everything that you're lacking of, and it goes the same to you too. We're just playing a game that will surely lead the both of us to losing, losing our trusts towards each other. It's best if we start a new game. Just 2 more days, and i don't want this to be happening during that day. Furthermore i'll not be spending time with you on that day, and it sucks big time.

Oh great, now you're trying to find fault in me AGAIN. Yeah, put it on me. How nice eh. You told me i always like to pick up the fight, BUT LOOK WHO'S TALKING NOW. Well, screw you. :((((

I'm sorry guys. I'm not really me nowadays. Well, i'll be away for band camp for 2 days, that is friday and saturday. So not looking forward to it. Miss me if you want. Ah whatever. Ok, gotta catch up on some hmwks. Bye.

TMR IS MONDAY LAAAAA.

2010-03-07T20:55:00.000-08:00

Hello (:

Today's sunday, and i do agree with the majority that its a just another typical boring day where you spend most the tyme at home doing nothing, well except facing the laptop (cos that's the only thing that you cn do la) for hours. Okay so i met up with bengap ytd night at about 7 after his activity at pulau ubin. We went to the pasar malam at a.p to look at all the scrumptious delicacies, especially KEBAB. DAMNNN. I feel like taking the long knife and chop all the kebab off from the turning2 thingy (HAHA wtf) and run away with the meat without paying. Baek eh. Rezeki tak halal btol. After which, we headed to prime to purchase some stuffs for mum and myself. Then we went back to the pasar malam to buy candy floss and some tidbits. (Y) So after that we headed to my void deck. Dlm byk2 bnde, aku bleh trluperh beli air siak. Bagos la tuh eh. So we sat under my blk, eating the candy floss, and it was damn muak i tell you. Pfft. But yeah, it was nice to spend time with bengap cos i get to punch his bonchet stomach. BAEK. (Y)(Y)

TODAY, woke up at 11 and showered quickly as i had to go for a wedding reception. First time for this year ok. I kept telling bengap that i was plainnnnn lazy to go, but im forced by him and mum to go. URGH. *clench fists* So i ended up wearing kebaye and jeans. Simplicity rocks \m/ Ok then we bus-ed to the place and i was glad that there weren't so many ppl. I was shocked when i saw salam. HAHA. Me and mum noticed something really weird, bdk2 kompang nyerh bdn sehat2 belake seh. HAHAHAHA. There was one who was very tall and at first glance, i really thgt he was bashier. Omg. LMAO. After that, we walked back home as it was near to our house and as soon as we got back, mum and big bro lentok tros sia. So i texted bengap and i wanted to borrow his 3 cds, santau, tooth fairy and jin notti. Then suddenly after 5 mins i received a msg saying that he was outside my house. Lincah kadok eh ini abg kecik. HAHA. Yay, so now i got those 3 cds alr, but im having problems watching it in laptop. Nehmind, there's always tv riggggggghhhhhht? :D

And yeah, TOMORROW'S MONDAY. AHHHHHHH OMG!! Not a single hmwk is being molested by me. Just not attractive enough la kn. HAHA. Oh, there's cca tmr. Should i go? I wish i don't have to, but i think i must. Ah whatever la. I should get going now and be ready for school tmr.

Oh no, i guess he's trying to find fault in me now. This sucks la. Cb.

Another way to make me feel alright.

2010-03-06T16:46:00.000-08:00

First and foremost,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUHAMMAD ZULFADHLIL 'AZIMI BIN MASHORI! (:

Believe me, you're the bestest lil bro i've ever had la! Even though you're not like any other normal kids out there, you're still an entertainer and you still make the family happy. I wouldn't want to lose you ok zul. I would rather kill myself than losing you. You're the one who brings the family together, despite the bad situations we're all in. You've never failed to make us laugh with your cheerfulness, and your funny acts. And i love it when i play the roll eyes game with you everytyme when i look at you. You will simply roll your eyes back to me and dgn penoh expression tawuk? HAHAHAHAHA. Oh yeah, in other words, we're simply lucky to have you in the family. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU ALOT OKAY ZUL? Once again, Happy Birthday! (:

I'm simply bored right now. I dunoe whether my family will be celebrating lil bro's bday or not, but i hope we would. But then, sis is already off to work hours ago and it feels so quiet. Really, no joke. Eh, i feel like im missing my old bestfriend yg dah lamerh menghilangkn diri seh. Text me will you? I miss talking to you la, and plus, i wanna share everything that has happened to me, like how we used to be last tyme. Ok ok? :) And love's now at pulau ubin doing the high rope elements thingy. Gosh, asl la kao jaoh sgt nie bengap?? :( Well maybe i'll be meeting him later after he's back. Come home soon la babie oieeeee. Oh, and the weather's like so fugging hawt la cn? Tak buleyh angssss babie. Okay, i guess i'll go and have my afternoon shower now since im all sticky, sweaty and smelly too. HAHAHA. Bye (:

Because i said so.

2010-03-05T22:15:00.000-08:00

Freaking awesome ok (:

Well hello there. I'm plain lazy to blog right now, but heck, i'll just blog for the sake of blogging okay? Hehe. So yeah, lemme recall EVERYTHING that has happened for the past 1 week or so la huh?

Okay, so i got back my common tests results and i did quite fairly. Not that good, not that bad. I guess i passed all my subjects? Well i hope so la huh. I want good remarks from my teachers when my dad meets them, especially from mdm arifa. HEHE. Oh, and last monday, i didn't attend cca as i was just plaaaaaiiiiinnnnnnn lazy to go, and i was VERY SICK (serious shit man). So instead of going cca, i went to slack with love, farhan, sharul and muz. Oh yeah, and i slept at the void deck too. Luckily love wanted to accompany me sleep and he didnt actually joined the others to play soccer. Bestbest! Thank you for taking care of me and seeing me sleep eh eh. Syg kao bengap. Hehehe. The next day, and the day after that day, which was on tuesday and wednesday, i didnt attend school as i was really really sick (k nie aku btol2 nyer saket eh HAHA). Went to the clinic on tuesday ALONE, and i was neubulised as my asthma was getting worst. And i had to pay 60 bucks for that and the medicines too, when the fact is that i only brought 40 bucks with me. Pathetic much. So i had to actually go back to the clinic the next day to pay up the rest of the amount and also to get my mc. Yeah, luckily there was mc. It was total shit at home where i didnt actually get to do much as i had to rest ALL THE WAY. It was way way way too boring. And the most suckiest fact was that i didnt get to see my lovely bengap on tv that tuesday when i was actually really looking forward to it. Whoah, damn was i surprised when he actually took the initiative to record it for me and let me, mama and sis watch it when we missed the episode. So manis of you la. ;) He really wanted mama to watch it man. Hahahaha. So on wednesday, love asked me to go his house, so i went there and watched Santau along with his mum and lil bro. Both of them were so cute la. Irfan (his lil bro) was so nice to make me a hot teh tarik drink. HEHE, thank you. And i actually talked alot with his mum and we got along really well. Yay! I've already impressed your mum horr bie ^^ So i went back at 5.10 as i had to fetch zul. I only watched half of the movie man. HAIYE. If i could, i really wanted to stay on till the movie ends. DAMN!

On thursday, i finally came back to school. The first thing that happened in the morning was that, my name was the first to be called up by that oh-so-tak-perlu-malay-tcher-yg tak-bertudong-dan-hanye-memakai-baju-kurong-ajer. Fuck yeah, i was embarrassed. Amshar shouted "chey anak mashori fierce ah tk gy sst!" WHAT THE FUCK EH AMSHAR. I went to the front and showed her my MC. She and zombie dah bo chui abes seh. HAHA! Bdh punye anjing. Yeah, after that, everybody teased me la, what else?! Kene panggel ngn full name plak tuh. _l_ _l_

So school was okay just now. Baked pizza and did fruit and vegetable salad. Everyone praised me for my pizza eh. HAHAHA. *sluardlm koyak* After school was cca day, and i actually attended cca when the fact is that i wasnt really looking forward to it. Homed for awhile, ate, changed to p.e attire and i was off to school. Nothing happened during cca, usual stuffs la huh. The band was huge when sec 1s joined in. 2 tymes my batch sia. But wait till the 2nd semester, teros 10 jer yg tinggal! HAHAHA. (Y) After cca, went to macdodo to have dinner with love. Double mcspicy meal eh eh. HEHEHEHE. *lick lips* I wish i didnt have to share with him cos i was freaking hungry at that point of tyme, but yeah, i ain't that bad ok! HAHAHA. Saw sharul and syafiq. At 8.15, we went to the minimart nearest to evg pri just to buy wintermelon drink for sis. Atleast 20 cents have been saved eh! Then love sent me home and here i am. Boring sak hidop. HAHA.

Well i wish that tmr isnt gonna be as bad as today. If not i would really punch myself in the stomach (tkde link eh HAHAHA -.-) or maybe doze off. Kay i dunoe wth im blabbering about. I hope love's free tmr. If not im really gonna stab him in the ass. (Y) Okay bye. :D

Taking everything for granted.

2010-02-27T23:20:00.000-08:00

Yes, FLU'S BEING A BITCH RIGHT NOW. It sucks when you have to pull 20 tissues out from the packet. My throat hurts too. Omg. And also, my nose bled earlier on bcos i forced everything out (know what i mean la kn). How nice eh. Anw, now ALL my precious photos in this bloody damn laptop are OFFICIALLY DEAD AND GONE. Great. Thanks eh sis for not moving it. I appreciate it loads. -.- ANYHOOS, i watched the advertisement on tv just now. I've mentioned in my earlier post that love will be on tv right. OMG, he was playing the game where he had to actually blow the candles while doing sit-ups. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! OMG i totally laughed my sexy ass off sia. DAMNNNNN~! But cute leh ^^ Somehow or somewhat, i miss looking at him.

Well, first of all, common tests are over. Okay maybe its a lil too late to say this la huh. So far, i've gotten back my math test ppr and thanks to Allah, i managed to pass it. Im proud of myself. Not trying to brag la, but i've waited so long, or maybe TOO LONG, for this tyme to come true. After years of failing without fail, i finally did it. Alhamdulillah. Now i'm just eagerly waiting for the results of my other papers. I hope its good news ayye, insyaAllah. So yeah, the whole of yesterday and today morning sucks big tyme cause love and me fought like there's no tmr. Baek eh. Attitude mcm cb sia. I could only hear myself dragging my shoes while walking home ytd. I was very very disappointed. Mcm aderh panah menusok jantong aku seh. :'( I ended up being fucked up myself and burst out. Well, it was partly his and my fault. Both parties were to be blamed la huh. But yeah, glad that everything's fugging over now. And he went to johor in the afternoon and just came back. Bestbest! Yes ah, bubblegum's coming my way. HEHEHE. I hope he has it. If not, aku bikin dierh abes2! Lmao. Oh, and apparently he's embarrassed right now by the fact that my mum wants to see him on tv this coming tuesday. HAHAHAHA. Padan mukerh kao. Gerenti you bo chui abes2 seh. I sukerh, you! LMAO. :D

Oh GOSH, my nose is bleeding again. I hate this, seriously. It's been a while since my nose bled. This is so sickening. Vampires, care to suck my blood? HAHAHA. I have to make sure this won't go on till monday, insyaAllah. I don't wish to continue anymore. I'm tired and i'm forced to entertain my nose. Sorry guys. HEHE. Bye. :)

Omg, T.I.M. :O

2010-02-21T17:50:00.000-08:00

Well, today's sunday, and i swear its the most &^%#$*@ day in the whole week. I'm currently revising my social studies notes, and i swear that even a single word can't be stored in my brain. Useless brain you have here shazz. HAHA. And obviously, common test is tomorrow and i hadn't been really revising for the past few weeks or days as my mind's all cropped up with some fucking problems, as well as homeworks. Well doing homework's part of revising too la huh? But it didn't even made me remember a single thing. How nice. Earlier on, love asked me out, not on a date la, -.- he asked me whether i could tag along with hym as he wanted to go to the chingay thingy located at admiral garden. Truth be told, i hadn't been to a single chingay parade in my whole entire life, and i wana follow hym, really badly leh. But sadly, its raining dogs and pigs right now, and mama's still not home yet, along with sis and big bro. Wahliao, mama, i wanna go to the chingay thingy lehh..... I wanna meet my boobfriend. HAHAHA. Damn i'm frigging restless, and zul's (lil bro) my victim for now. \m/ Okay guys, i'll just keep this short as i wanna continue revising SS, eventhough it's abusing me, inside out. BYEBYE. (:

Saturday evening.

2010-02-20T22:30:00.000-08:00

Hello lovelies. (:

Had a random outing with love just now, well, a last minute planning though. He treated me to a movie. Thanks ah eh. HEHE. So went out at 3 plus, and headed to golden village at yishun. He was very very sweet today, mcm first tyme gitu aku npk dierh gitu mcm. HAHA. So we watched PERCY JACKSON AND THE LIGHTNING THIEF, even though he has already watched it at johor. Whoah, it was sucha great show man. I swear i was so noisy inside the theatre cos i was freezing (the aircon was just above us, what do you expect?). And seriously, i tried tahan-ing my pee. After the movie, we walked out theatre and rushed to the ladies'. Whoah, i saw my other scandal la eh, LEE MIN HO. Well actually i saw his poster, not inside the toilet la. -.- Gosh i miss hym and his curly hair so much. HAHAHA, prangai. Strolled around northpoint, man that place shucks even more than before, i swear. Then aku tatawu aperh steam eh, i kept sneezing for 8 tymes (he counted. cb. HAHA). And there he was, laughing away like one crazy bitch while seeing me sneeze. Biadab eh you. Then had dinner at BK. We took so long to choose our meal. I can see that the phillipino maid, ooopppsss wrong word, i mean phillipino cashier, was fucked up. HAHAHA. So sat down and ate. At 7 plus, bus-ed to a.p to buy things for mama, and walked to woodlands mart to buy papa's extra spicehh nasi goreng kampong. Lmao. Slacked for awhile at the void deck, danced around, sang to some random songs and went home at 9.30. Overall, i really enjoyed the day with him. Thanks for everything that you've done and sacrificed for me. Gua love lu ah lily. HEHEHEHE. \m/ :D

Maseh lom legal. HAHA.

2010-02-16T18:04:00.000-08:00

Gosh, thank you so very much to all of you nice humans out there who had wished me. I'm just speechless. Haha. Especially to love, bestfriends, and family, thank you thank you very much! I totally love you guys. Heeehs. (:

Well, i had a mini celebration with family at home since mum made a birthday cake just for me. Awwwwwww~ I was so touched you knw. HEHE. Actually, i wanted to celebrate with friends, but family comes first right? So yeahh. I was quite disappointed though as i couldnt meet up with love, but i understood why. He had a 3 days/2 nights family camp, and today, he went to JB with his family. What a holiday eh, until cnnt spend tyme with me? Biadab. LMAO. But there's always next tyme right? Sure enough, i'm gonna strangle him till his last breath on wednesday. Watch out eh boy. HAHAHA. So he spent tyme with his family, and i also spent quality tyme with my family. I'm so glad. HEHE. Then at night, we had dinner outside. It was big bro's treat i guess? Haha. Wow, mcm first tyme gitu eh. Well anw, thanks brok! HAH. We actually spent long mins waiting for the food to arrive. Heartache man. But unfortunately, as soon as the food (CHICKEN CHOP BABE!) arrived, i took 3 spoonfuls of chicken and i suddenly felt like throwing up. Babidoll btol (aidi nyerh trademark HAHA). Told love and bestf, and both gave a different comment, plus NEGATIVE ONES TOO. Love said "ah tuh ah, gelojoh sgt kn. tdi tatawu nak sbr." CB. And bestf said, "omg. really? i pity the chicken seh!" WATANABEI. Saket betoooool aty aku. If they were right infront of me... whoah, i'll surely... *crack fingers* yeah you knw what will happen la huh. HAHA. I WAS DISAPPOINTED, yet again, for not being able to enjoy my meal on my birthday. DAMMMNNNN! *helfi's accent* So while texting love, i suddenly looked straight and saw someone familiar. Damn was i surprised, fizbhy was there. (although i realised that in the afternoon i just chatted with him on msn HAHA weird). He was 6 or 7 chairs away from me, hell yeah was i lucky to have worn my cntacts. \m/ He kept smiling and he was quite embarrassed i reckon so? Ooooooooo... wahhhhhh.... (our trademark LOLLL) Then mum bought a mini carpet/comforter for sitting down on the floor or what ah. Maybe it was my present as i find it useful now that im sitting on it. HAHAHAHA :D

Well im glad that nothing sasuay happened on my birthday la huh. *pats chest* AND IM GLAD, once again, that my birthday falls on chinese new year. Lucky eh lucky. (Y) So enough saying, i shall end this once and for all. Andand, thanks again to all those who had wished me!! BYE!! (:

kipinn it undead :D

2010-02-14T22:59:00.000-08:00

hellohello , dinaaa here to updaate shazz bloggie .

well , hari niq shazz wunn b updaatinn psl she feelinn very dwn , dwn , dwn .
cz her " vaalenntine " wenn ECP to camp wf fam D: leaavinn her here wf nobodi to celebrate V-daay wf . sedeh kn ? yeaah . bt shazz dunn sadsad okaay ? ko ttp ader akuq peq ? weinkweink . hehe .

so tmr , is a big daay for shazz . krg tau taq ? krg patut tau cz bsq bdae dier tau ! hehehe , tmr her bie cuminn bk , so i hope it will b memorable bdae for her tmr :D
" ehq zul ! ko better bt dier haapy ehq bsq , klau taq ko siaap arq on wed larq ehq ! "
hahaha , wtf dinaaa ? hehe .

okaay larq tuq jeq ,
byes :D
btw ,
shazz haapy 15th bdae !
n jgn sadsad agi okaay ?
dinaaa sayanng kau selau tau
:D

Empat Months.

2010-02-13T20:15:00.000-08:00

Hello lovely readers. I'm totally happy + disappointed + bored. Happy cos today marks our 4th month, disappointed cos i didn't actually get to celebrate it with hym. And bored cos the reasons are very clear and obvious. HAHA. He's now at east coast park, having a family camp. Gosh im so jealous. He invited me but you know, im shy (that's so totally not me HAHA). Well now, im currently texting hym and bestf, both are my two best entertainers. But love's always pissing me off. Cb pny anak. But its fun la huh cos aku dapat caci maki dierh alek. HEHE. Tmr's valentines' day, and im totally gonna meet hym. And also, 15 on the 15th! Happy siak aku. HEHEHEHE. Well i'm gonna make this short though cos i dunoe what else is on my mind right now. Oh, last but not least,

To my dearest Mohd Zulhairi Bin Mohali, aka my Mr Lily (mcm gay seh LMAO),

Happy 4th Monthsary Love.

I'm really speechless right now as we've finally survived this 4th month together. I love you too much already, until i can't even bear to lose you. Promise me we'll pull this through together and surely we'll last forever k bie? My last 3 words to you,

I LOVE YOU. (:

Friday (:

2010-02-12T22:52:00.000-08:00

Hello lovelies. I'm sorry for not updating. Well, to be specific, i'll always update on friday and during the weekends/holidays okay? ;)

So basically, my friday was spent wisely. First up, in the morning, went to school with love as usual. As soon as we reached school, he took out a gift and passed it to me. I was surprised though. Thanks for the gift bie (: So yeah, we had the cheering competition in school. Fun, disappointing, tensed and happy moments we have, i must say. 3e3 didnt clinched the 3rd position, but hell yeah we had lots of fun. E3s, I love you guys! (:

Then i went back home straightly after the event, showered and got ready for sufi's birthday party. It seemed like he was just turning 7. HAHA. Met aidi at a.p, then proceeded to cwp to meet up with 2 of my bbygirls. We bought sufi a pencil case at 77th street, since his is already soooo %$#@!^&*. HAHAHA. No offence dude. Then taxi-ed to his crib. Overall, the party was a BEH-LAST! You could actually tell from the photos though. *looks up*

At 6 plus, we decided to head back home, but i wanted to meet love, so aidi tagged along as he wanted to meet the rest of them. Reached, sat, and talked crap with love. He's trying to act cute with his OH SO TAK PERLU specs. HAHA. But yeah, it actually suited hym la in the end. Lmao. Suddenly, saw my shaila twinney with mus, so we slacked together. So there was me, love, aidi, shai and mus as the rest had already gone home. We totally laughed our asses off while talking, padahal nga maghrib seh. Prangai biadab eh. HAHAHA. Then we headed home at about 8pm. I so totally love today! (:

Well, tmr's the big day, followed by valentines' day, then another big big day for me. HAH, what issit actually eh? Go figure la! HEHE.

Like a child who misses her blanket.

2010-02-06T12:49:00.000-08:00

Hello. I'm feeling so down now. Very very down. Love has gone to melaka to meet up with his relatives. Omg, i feel so lonely. Seriously. Besides him, who else can actually brighten up my day with a good morning wish EVERYDAY? Sigh. Well, in the morning at 6 just now, he texted me, saying that he will be off to melaka soon. Oh yeah, he also said "jgn carik laki laen eh you." I was like HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH kay WTF bie? C'mon la, paling2 pon aku go back to Taufik Batisah. HEHEHE. Eh, i hope you bring the shirt too okay? You can smell and feel me everywhere you go (sounds so wrong sia). But whatever it is, do come back soon k? Mcm loner seh aku.

According to you.

2010-02-05T21:31:00.000-08:00

Bestie's favourite song. Hehes. See, i remember ya knw! How sweet of me. (:

So hie earthlings. I'm frigging tired right now. Just came back from school. As usual, its cca day on friday. Band pracs have been quite a boredom day by day. I wish we still have our dearest Mr Samuel with us now. :( So yeah, that sentence says it all. Before that, i went back home with love for awhile. So had a light lunch at home, then proceeded to his house. I waited outside and suddenly, i could hear his mum shout. HAHA. Damn cute i tell you. Love was being shouted at as he actually wanted to take a sip of water inside WITH HIS SHOES ON, when the fact is that his mum had already mopped the floor seconds ago. Damn bodoh man this fella. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! I couldn't stop giggling when i heard that. Then walked to admiralty and bought my milo mcflurry *lick lips* HEHE. Proceeded to the playground nearest to school and waited for aidi. Love and i were late for our ccas, so the 3 of us hurried. Band = SLACK, what else? Fall out at 6.40+. The whole band was being lectured at. Truth be told, band's getting worse without a permanent conductor. Disappointing man. Headed home with love. And he was being so irrating by not talking to me like how he used to be just because i asked hym to "shut up". Prangai dog seh. HAHAHAHA. Aiyo amma, he's going to melaka tmr. I want souvenirs cn? HEHE. And i hate the fact that my phone's gonna be so silent tmr. DAMMIT. :(

Hug me la cb.

2010-01-30T21:41:00.000-08:00

Yes, i went to the library with hazliyana, hany, shaila and mus. Actually there were 3 of us, then muz came. Sebok siak. HAHA. Then hany came as there was sort of a prob going on. Comforted her and everything was as per normal. Did our malay lit project, but ended up doing only 2 slides. Pathetic much. HAHA. So texted love and he told me he had to actually enter this contest on tv and i was like okay, wtf?! HAHAHAHAHAH. Seriously i can't stop laughing upon hearing that he's gonna be on tv on monday. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA OMG this sucks. I can't stop laughing HAHAHAHAHAHHA. He was actually forced by his dad and cousins. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA *rolls on the floor* But wait, what kinda contest is that when he's even allowed to skip school?! *points middle finger high up in the air* Damn you bie! Go fvck yourself larh!! Urghh. But, sad lehh. I'm going to school on mon, ALONE. Sucks ah. Stupid contest. Now i don't feel like going to school cause i'll be having band after school. BLOODY HELL *weasly's accent*. Oh, i have to finish up on my homeworks real soon. OMG OMG. MAMPOS. Bye.

Fight for this love.

2010-01-29T22:22:00.000-08:00

Hello. I'm sorry for not updating eh, especially to Aidi Saifudin and Titik Syahdina. HAHA. Well, too many things have been happening these few days. Yes, fights, conflicts, misunderstanding between me and love. Well, i'm just glad that everything's alright now that we've talked things out. Hmm, issit really necessary for me to tell it out here? I guess not. Haha. I wana thank hidayah for helping me and being there for me when i needed a shoulder to cry on. I love you beb ;) Also to some others who cared to ask what was wrong with me and why my face totally changed. You could really see the difference between my expressions on that day and the day before. Seriously. And, i was shocked upon hearing that love cried in class. OMG. Cengeng eh kao. HAHA. Kidding. I'm so so so so sorry k bie :'( I didn't mean to make you cry. I was just angry with you, myself and _______, but i wasn't really angry with you though. It was HYM who made our r/s turned upside down. On the day we fought giler babi nyerh rabak smpai tak leh angs, love wasn't really sure why i was angry with hym. He thought that it was because of hym msging a girl. You think i'm easily over-jealous eh? Mepek siak kao bie. After the fight, i went home ALONE. My heart totally sank and i was really crying on my way home looking like one &^%@#!*?%$ girl who just lost her parents. Yeah, call me sensitive. And i was actually shocked that love ran back from where he was to my place to apologise to me and to also talk things out. But i was totally fucked up, and i ignored hym. Suddenly, he stopped and was totally motionless. All he could do was to just see me walk away and cry. I was totally disappointed with myself at that moment. Hidayah called me and asked whether i was fine or not, and i said yeah. She knew bout it as love asked her for help and he told her everything. He can't bear to see me cry or even being hurt and he kept worrying. I tried calming myself down, but it was just too painful. Then the next day, we tried to talk things out after school. 1st meet-up, he told me straight in my face that he didnt have anything to say to me. Imagine how hurt i was. So yeah, i sobbed, again. Yaya told love and he quickly ran to me and explained things. From there, we finally settled things out. I was badly relieved. Phewww. You knw, now i'm scared to lose you. I just knew that i'm deeply and madly in love with you. Promise me that whatever happens, you won't leave me alright? I love you very very much kanasai. ♥

Missing things.

2010-01-21T22:56:00.000-08:00

Camp was great. Had a wholatta fun with my e3 clique and i've totally became closer with those whom i wasn't close to. Yeah, it was a memorable camp. We went through alot together during those 3 days and i believed we actually SURVIVED THE CAMP. HAHA. We had to work together, eat together, drink together, bath together (AINGGG) and we mostly did everything together. There was once when we had our water confidence at sea and there was someone in the boat who stopped infront of us, his face all covered with cloth and wearing sunglasses, suddenly splashed water at us continuously. It was scary at first, but it was indeed humorous. I even called him "perogol bersiri". *giggles* I'm starting to miss camp when the fact is that i actually wanted to go home a.s.a.p when i was still at the campsite. HAHA. But overall, i just love it! *thumbs up*

And to this minah of mine, i hope we can spend more tyme together like just now kk. Aku rindu mengekek ngn kao tawuk! Sayang kao. :D

Stronger than ever.

2010-01-16T21:34:00.000-08:00

I so awesomely love this song. (:

Well, hello there. I'm back once again, after not updating for a week i guess? Haha. Apologies for that jyeahh. So okay, 2nd week of school sucks more than the 1st week. I've had a huge pile of homeworks that had to be handed in the next day. Imagine having fnn, bio and eng homeworks in a day and you have to actually hand it in the next day. Omg, sumpah aku maty sia. And i swear i won't survive in the following weeks. Oh yeahh, i'll be attending the sec 3 camp this coming monday till wednesday. Must miss me eh people. *winks* Well, im looking forward to it, but at the same time i'm not too. I haven't even pack all the things and IM NOT READY. Furthermore there's ALOT of things that i have to bring and i'm sad to leave dearest (eh its only 3 days la cb). Eh bacen, must miss me kay. Jgn menggatal eh ngn pmpan laen. Kalao tak, siap kao nnt. HAHAH. I wanna buy the $3+ perfume that he bought. LOL, cheapskate much. But i don't care, as long as i can smell his scent im already happy. HAHA. *claps for joy* And good news is, i don't have to attend band on monday! OMG OMG. Happy like fvck man. I will be visiting papa at hospital tmr as he had undergone a leg operation and i'm glad that everything turned out well. Also, i'll be moving out real soon i guess, to i dunoe where? Mum still havent inform us yet. But i hope it will be somewhere near. If not, i can't walk to sch with that babuie of mine. :'( Okay, my post seems to be boring. But heck, at least i've updated my blog. HEHE. Bye! (:

"I was up trying to think of all the reasons to why I should let go of you. I couldn't come up with any and even if i did, I doubt they're in no comparison to the list i made for the reasons why I should stay."

Where are you?

2010-01-09T21:00:00.000-08:00

Hello. Im just updating for the sake of updating. I'm not in the mood to do so actually. Well, 1st week of sch was okay. Homeworks are piling up really really fast. I wonder how will i get to finish it by mon. And some people are just showing me some kinda fvcking nabei ccb attitude. Not exactly some, but one. And that's bie. Really try'na piss me off. Fvck. And many apologies to naiim. Wasnt angry with you. Bie's changed, like after the sec 1 orientation camp. Ain't kidding okay. He's not hym, really. I feel like he's someone that i've known only today. And he actually made me waste my tears yesterday and today. Dammit. Sialan nyerh org. I hate you sia now, seriously. I don't wish to say anything anymore. Heart makin painful sia. Well, i feel like touching my dearest homeworks now. Bye.

Don't try'a show me bitchy attitude cn? You've changed, ya know. Well maybe i ain't that special one in your heart anymore. You know i love you very very much, but it doesn't seem like you care at all now. THANKS ALOT SIA BIE. You've ruined 2 of my days.

The start of something new.

2010-01-04T22:35:00.000-08:00

Yesterday's.

eh dins, I HATE THAT RED BASTARD!!

Aloha~ It's been long since i post (padahal baru brape hari HAHA). Well, yeahh, today's the start of term 1. School was okaaayyyyy. Not that bad afterall. So in the morning, went to school with babie! HEHE. Tuh anak pagy2 kaki darh melecet sia. Tsk3. So waited for hym to place the plaster on his leg and off we went to school. Went straight up to the hall and joined my new class. Well, at first glance, i thought my new class was gonna be a NO-NO, but yeahh, i must say that i have a bunch of joyful classmates actually. Tapi bonding blom ada la huh. Then bla bla bla, neh noh neh, hee hor hee hor, went to cwp after school with my girls. Oh, and not forgetting, AIDI. HAHA. Ate at banquet, shopped at popular and bought drinks at 1 loller shop. And conincidentally, naiim was there too. Haha. Rindu kao sia scandal! :P So accompanied hanis to wdlnds mart and went home with naiim. HE asked ME to send hym to the bustop. Nabei. Tak gentleman nyerh jantan. _l_ Lucky i was in a hooray hooray mood. -.- Kay then homed, ate instant mee goreng sodap. Well, i guess i wanna get ready for school tmr. Smgt kebabian sia. Okay2, im off. BYE!

Wassup, 2o1o?

2010-01-01T03:28:00.000-08:00

2009; Still isn't as meaningful as 2008. :(

It isn't really a year to remember, so,

farewell '09!

2010; A year to celebrate as i'll be 15 soon!

Hopefully, it will be a better year.

Let's just wait and see yeah? (:

New achievements, new resolutions for the year 2010. Nahh, it isnt really gonna be that way, but i hope i will change for the better, InsyaAllah. Oh, and, school is just in 3 days' tyme. OHH-MYY-GODDD. Not really sexcited bout it, but im pretty eager though as i'll be meeting back with my dearest bbygirls and boyfriends (sounds so wrong sia). I've bought my schoolbag and shoe ONLY. Pathetic much. Still haven't done anything to my hair, but will be cutting it tmr (Y). I wonder when cn i get my pencil case. But i desperately want a new pencil case la!!! Cb. Oh oh, and i can't wait to see those guys wearing long pants, especially aidi. Gerenti jady bahan kekek sia!!! HAHAHA. Eh, i havent even wash my new school uniform. Gawaaaaaat! But im plain lazy to put it in the washing machine la. HOHO. Okay, i dun wanna elaborate much. I feel so lazy these few days. Don't mind me la huh. Hehe. Kay bye! And happy new year! \m/

*Tanarq layan? Tkpe. Aku tak kesah. Gy mampos ngn kao babie.*

Nothing much.

2009-12-27T22:13:00.000-08:00

*yg nie sumpah aku cm kuntilanak. HAHA.*

Hello bello! I went to s'pore expo on friday. Heeehs, aidi was there too! Baek ah. He was giving out flyers. I went there not because of hym, i wanted to see TAUFIK BATISAH. Alahai. Yes, he was fugging hawwwt, AS USUAL. I simply wanna melt sia. HEHEHEHE. In the middle of the show, i saw aidi across the hall and we were doing hand signs to each other. Org stare semcm sia. HAHAHA. Then i texted hym. He said "pendek sgt ke smpai tarq npk stage?" BABI SIA. Tkpe aku ingat. Okay so when taufik sang the song usah lepaskan, dierh nyerh suare, NA'UZUBILAH. Mcm narq jatoh sia. LOL. Then when wanna go bck, salam aidi's mum and said bye to her and aidi. Tiring bodoh. Walk like hell. Won't be elaborating that much la hor. I wanna concentrate on teevee. Singapore idol mah. HEHE. Later TAUFIK BATISAH ADERH LAAA. :DD

Oh, and there's band tmr. Fuck. Irritating much. But yeah, im going. Oh, bie pn aderh camp siaaa. Bestbest! Well, i needa sleep early, for the first tyme im gonna sleep early. HEHE. Okay, fullstop. BYE!

And you're you. (:

2009-12-25T02:54:00.000-08:00

*my 3am face. HAHA.

you knw i knw eyhq bestie. ^^*

Aloha. Okay, where should i start? Hmm. Oh yeah. First and foremost, sry for not posting on wed and ytd as i was too tired to post alr. Busy webcamming ah. HEHE. Kay so, had band prac on wed. Seriously, i was fucked up. Whenever i went for practice, that &#$@!% new instructor is always nagging and nagging and nagging. You cnt imagine how fucked up i was. Truthfully, i miss mr samuel la siol. Serious shyt okay. So it was from 1.30 - 5.30. Yes, 4 LONG, TIRING, NAGGY HOURS. If i could, aku btol2 narq melalak mcm anj sia pat situ. HAHAHAHA. But i stayed patient though. Sabar sparoh dripaderh iman sia.

Kay then went home and changed cause planned to meet aidi. Actually we planned to go for a jog, but ended up going wdlnds mart. HAHA. Weirdos. So called hym and asked hym to meet me under my blk. He brought his bicycle along, kononnyerh narq riding ah. Padahal padahal sia. So from my blk, he rode the bicycle and there i was, being left behind. Aku tawu aku slow la aidi. Babi sia. LMAO. We went to opposite sides and tried to see who's the fastest. Well, as usual, im always the fastest. Actually same speed ah. That's already considered good okay. Bought bubbletea there. Padahal pat umah leyh uat siak. Haha. After that, we sat at a bench near the playground opposite wdlnds mart at around blk 720+ i guess? Not shure. We talked alot. And i really mean ALOT kay. Bout bie, bestfriend, everything ah. I really love talking to aidi. At the same tyme, we joked around and stuffs. And i laugh like pig kay? HEHEHE. We randomly saw this one pmpan cynerh aged 8 liddat? And i swear her stomach boncheyt gylerh mams sia. She was playing hopscotch. As soon as she turned towards our direction, both of us shouted OHH MYY GODDD!!!! HAHHAHA. If you were there i swear you would have totally LYAO. Kay aku tawu kiterh bastard -.- HEHE. But whothehell cares? ;D So around 7 plus, we went home.

Then on-ed lappy and chatted with bestie! HEHH. Lamo noh tarq bbual. Oh yeah, we webcammed as well, i mean I webcammed with myself. LOL. Bestie tkde webcam. -.- He wanted to see the bubbletea i made. In the first place kn kn, i blended the thing as usual la. Then suddenly when i wanted to open the lid cover, it was seriously fugging tight sia. Even mama and zul couldnt even open it. Then papa came bck home at the right tyme and i asked hym to open it. And yes, he did it just liddat sia! Wth, aku twist tuh cover cm narq mampos sia. Finally, drank it and showed to bestie. And he was jello~ HOHOHO. Okay so i showed many fugging irritating faces to hym. Andand, aku pose mcm2 sia. Sumpah! He rated me. ^^ 5000 pah? HEHE. *sluar dlm koyak* Kay it ended at 4 plus. Baek kan!!! All the way aku mcm syiok sendirik sia. But i really had fun chatting with hym. Like finally, we were talking like how we used to last tyme. Thanks yeah (:

So today, did nothing. Rot at home. Chatted with bestie and webcammed again. Mcm fun gytuh aku syiok sndirik. HAHA. Kay now currently chatting with dinaaa bacen and hafiz. Anw, to dins, congrats eh girl. Im not happy for you ah siol. Gy mampos. HAHAHAHAHA. I kid, i kid. Aku sonang banget utk kao. Lastlong gylerh babs eh krg! Tulus dan ikhlas dari hatyku nie. Almk, aku mcm trharu gytuh. Sodeyh bulu sia aku. Cm narq melalak. HOHO.

Oh, anw, speaking bout HOHO, Satan Claus is here to wish all the christians MERRY CHRISTMAS! HOHOHO. Don't worry children, i'll grant all your wishes dgn ilmu hitam aku ah! HAHA. ;D

To bie; Sry for not replying to your msges. My ppd's kinda low. Im sry. Love kao babi. (:

Am i really fvcking selfish??

2009-12-22T23:32:00.000-08:00

"Whoah, my "sexy" butt is getting bigger and bigger!! *slaps butt continuously*"

Hell-o! Hmm. Okay, now i shall post a proper one horr. Many apologies to my readers (if i even have one) for not posting on sunday and ytd. Sooooooo, where should i start? Oh, yeah, on sunday, nothing much happened ah. Stayed at home all the waaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy. Planned to go jogging with iira, but ended up sleeping mcm babi on the bed till 10 am. So yeah, it was CANCELLED FOR GOODNESS SAKE. Who the hell wants to go jogging at 10 am sia? -.- Then rot at home mcm nangke busok and shake my butt all day long. Kay, i kid. Then on-ed lappy, chatted with naiim, dina and the usual clique. Then slept like a pig. And i dreamt!! A really really weird and bad dream i reckon so? Somebody whom i didn't wana dream about appeared in there. Omg, like sial man. Ah, to hell with it. And yes, sunday was finally over~

Then ytd, train-ed to nenek's crib at 1 plus. Had a light lunch at ljs near commonwealth mrt, and shopped at sheng shiong for awhile. Finally, i bought oreo for the creation of my bubbletea!!! Weeeeeeeeee~ *jumps for joy* Kay best. Then bought london choco roll (A). Actually thought of ketok-ing mama and ask her to buy lotta stuffs, but tarq baek larh kan. HEHEHE. See, anak misali nie. Padahal mcm setan. HAHA. Oh yeahh, i saw the cereal that was advertised on tv that is good for perot boncheyt like mine. I asked mama to buy, and she replied back, "Ah tuh sumerh bedek ah. Kao jgn cayerh. Buat kao makin gemok aderhla." Grrrr. Aku bersbr jerq pat situ. HAHA. Then after buying those stuffs, bus-ed to nenek's crib straightaway. Andand, i lost my ez link card siaaaaaaaaaaaaaal!!!!!!! *sobs loudly* Haiye. Then finally reached her place. Rindu sama nenek gue siol. Lamo noh tarq jumpo. HEHE. Then ate the gravy she cooked, kari kepaler ikan baybeh!! \m/ Then iira came afterwards as she was from her poly. Watched tv and bla bla bla. Kay i fugging love it when it was going home tyme. Nenek gave me 50 bucks la cb!!! YES, 50 BUCKS AH! Hehe. She told me it was for the buying of my books, but i told her i was under fas so there wasnt a need to buy any books. Then she just heck care and i just took the money lor. I was like "timerh kaseyh nekk!!!!" Prangai jakon sia. HAHA. Sis and mum was unhappy. Seriously. They thought i lied about it. DOUBLE EWW - TIII - EFF. Really fucked up bodoh. But nehmind, i knew i wasnt lying. (((:

Today... *jengjengjeng* I'M ROTTING AT HOME!! Yay! *screams like hell* -.- Kay whatever. If only mama is working.. Grrrr. Okay at noon, i did my bubbletea la sial. Oreo chocolate baybeh. Nabil, be superrrr jello~ HEHE. It was oh-so-awesomely deliciouso! *two thumbs up* Of course ah, sendirik buat, sendirik puji ah. HEHEHEHE. Watched tasbih cinta, cerita dongeng and cucu betong at tv3. My 3 best favourite shows. ^^ Then had instant mee sodap for lunch cum dinner. Mama didnt cook. Pfft. Mama went out after maghrib and dad bought home doughnuts at 9 plus. Sodaaaaap. Whoah, mcm never ending gytuh citerh aku? Surely you people darh fucked up eyh. HAHA. Kay say no more. I shall end this, once and for all. Lemme say a solid BYE. *walks away* HAHA. I joke, i joke. (:

P.S; When love is right infront of me, i neglect it. But when love fades away, i'll go around searching for it. Fvck. Stupid, selfish bitch.

Bolder and stronger.

2009-12-19T22:12:00.000-08:00

SAAAAAAAAP! Kay i seriously dunoe what to write. Really, seriously. My mind's all cocked up already. I'm thinking bout too many things. And lately, i've realised that i've been day-dreaming all day long. I'm not shure why, but i always get carried away by it. If this goes on, i dunoe whathell is gonna happen to me when sch reopens. Kay enough saying already. Will post a proper one tmr. Will be meeting aidi tmr, insyaallah. Had to cancel our meeting just now as i had something on. And, just a lil care to share thingy below.

Wow, nice photography i got here. See ah who took it?! *winks* Kay ini sungguh random. Family and i had this for dinner. BAKED MACARONI CHEESE BEB! Sodaaaaaaaaapppp. ^^ Eyh, i helped my mum and sis to cook kay. Future fnn student nie. HAHA. Doesn't it look superrrrr deliciouso? With the cheese on top, OHHH-MYYY-GODDD, i feel like eating again siaaaaaaaa. Well, anyone wana try? HEHE. Kay enough. BYE! (:

My bitter heart.

2009-12-18T22:12:00.000-08:00

The karaoke session was a BEHH-LAASSSST! Thanks for the day, bbygs. (:

Well, i'm currently not being myself. I just can't figure out why i'm being like this. I didn't even reply to any of the msges being sent to me, including his msg also. I'm fucked up with myself, for no particular reason. And to be honest, i burst out in tears, really. I feel like something's not right. I feel like my family's always picking on me. I feel like i'm no longer appreciated and being loved, and instead, im just being fooled. I feel guilty for not replying to any of the msges, but i just can't. I'm really really sorry. I was surprised upon knowing that he took the iniative to msg my sis and asked whether i was angry with hym or not. Well, i'm not okay bie? I just don't feel right about myself. I'm really really sorry to you, and the others too. Gawd, i feel like sobbing again. No no no, i must be strong, but, i'm just too weak. I really don't know why i can't handle such problems easily.

I'm somehow struggling, and suffering at the same tyme. Yeah, many sees me happy on the outside, but yeah, i'm just faking it for the sake of friends. What for showing people that you're doleful when you know they don't even care? But really, i'm not trying to find sympathy or what la huh. I'm just pouring out EVERYTHING that i feel that's not right. Oh well, i kinda have this really really bad feeling that something bad is gonna happen between me and hym. See, another bad feeling. Fvck, this totally sucks big tyme laaa. I keep having this kinda feeling eversince that thing that had happened a few months ago. It's like, i've really lost trust in boys. I dunoe why. OH MYYY GODD. *tahan tears* But, whatever it is, i can't let this feeling conquer me for long. I hope i can sort things out really fast. Insyaallah. Okay, i'm sooooo relieved that i'll be meeting aidi tmr to pour everything out to hym. And by this, i hope that 3/4 of the burden that i'm carrying now will ease bit by bit. And isn't your life a waste when you have to suffer for something so ridiculous? I wonder...

Ahh, thank god!

2009-12-16T02:24:00.000-08:00

HIE! Kay i just came back from bugis earlier on. Pheww, tiring bodoh. Mama was damn eager to buy the MAGIC BULLET BLENDER. Mentang2 larh duet cpf belambak. HAHA. Well, that thing was popular back then, but we only cn buy it now. A lil too late i guess? HAHA. So at 3 plus, i dolled up and everything ah. I was dilly delly-ing as i kept changing my tops and deciding which one suits best. Mcm org bengap siak. Kay then mama was fucked up and asked me to hurry, so yeah. Bus-ed to admiralty mrt eventhough it was just 1 BUS STOP AWAY -.-"! No no, not me. You cn put the blame on my mama. HAHA. So waited for sis and we were off to bugis. Mama said she wanted to buy for me some tops, so i was darn happy larh kan (DUHH ._.)!!!

So after reaching, we looked around the place and there it was, THE HEAVENLY HEAVEN! (A) I was fugging confidentio that i would get 1 or 2 tops, but ended up getting NOTHING. *roll eyes* I forgive mama for what she did. HAHA. Sis and me bought leggings ONLY. Kay nehmind. Then headed to BHG to purchase the blender. Yeah, sadly, i was the one who had to carry it. The box was big and heavy and it kept hitting the ground. I know im very short. Ah laugh your asses off larh. Nabei. Oh and did i mention that my bro is gonna beat my height?! FVKCFVCKFVCK. Sodeyh sia. :'( Kay skip that.

Then off to VICTORY! Sapedek ah, aperh agy. Woooo~ MURTABAK MADNESS! Then lantak nyerh lantak, we waited for the receipt for how many minutes i dunoe? Fvcking pissed off la. Then went down to the counter to pay. And lastly, we train-ed home. Coincidentally, i banged into miss sya at a.p. Gosh, i miss her. And i swear she was oh-so-awesomely gorgeous! So nw, fvcking tired larh okay? But im somehow satisfied cause I GET TO DO MY OWN BUBBLETEA!!! *screams like hell* I wanna buy pearl tmr. But wait, is there still an outlet at sembawang? ARGH, knn. :-@

Oh anw, the tyme now is 2.16a.m. I'm still too stubborn to sleep. Many apologies to the people who had continuously adviced me to sleep early. I've let you all down. I'm sry. I regret my mistakes. *tahan tears* LOL. Kay currently listening to 98.7fm online. Lazy to plug in the radio's wire. WTF?! Haha. Omg, i suddenly feel like sleeping sia. This is a very good sign. Hehe. Goodnyte! (:

P.S; I'm somewhat having second thoughts about this. Should we go on? *scratches head*

There's always "you" who appear.

2009-12-15T23:04:00.000-08:00

I feel like someone's appearing in my dreams almost every night. It's fvcking weird. That particular person appeared in almost every of my dreams, for no particular reasons. Really, ain't kidding. Well, people say, dreams are never real. But when you dreamt of someone for like almost every night and unintentionally, doesn't it have a meaning? Maybe i'm being too paranoid or what, but i'm pretty shure all of these has a meaning. Well, let's just wait for the outcome aye? Hopefully, nothing bad will happen.

A care to share note.

2009-12-15T02:00:00.000-08:00

Omg omg, i just noticed something. Okay i was listening to the radio, and at the same tyme, i was also viewing my blog site. So yeah, was reading the taggies and everything, and guess what, suddenly the same song on the radio was being played as at my blog. And, miraculously, it was played exactly at the same tyme. MIRACLE RIGHT!!!!! Omg. I got darn sexcited bout this until i dunoe who to tell it off to as everyone was sound asleep, so i wrote it here. HAHAHAHA. So fugging jakon sia. But seriously, it was such a miracle (A). HAHA. Kay gotta tell my sis today, early in the morning later when going jogging. Kay, did i just mention going jogging? Yes i did. Okay yeah i am going. Surprised? You should be cause this is only the 4th tyme im going during the holidays. Don't believe it, go see the pictures of mine. HAHAHAHA. Chiaos.

Dear John..

2009-12-13T13:00:00.000-08:00

Fvck, this movie is totally awesome. I hope it will be released in s'pore soon cause it's released on the 5th of feb next year in USA. Miraculously, it will be on my birthday maybe? HAHA.

Duerh Months.

2009-12-13T03:49:00.000-08:00

See up there, my cheeks are getting more chubbier and my eyebags are getting worse~! BABIFOOL BTOL. Oh anw, hello. The tyme now is 3.29am and yes, obviously im still awake. It's freaking hard to sleep sia nowadays. I wonder how my sis could actually doze off so early. Maybe she's drunk. HAHA. Kidding. Damn, i really really wanna have a good nyte sleep like other earthlings out there who are sleeping so soundly now -.-"! Really pissed off right now. Okay ytd after i woke up at 8, i brushed my teeth, had breakfast, washed the dishes and slept again at 12 until 6pm. COOL HUH? Gosh, and cuzzin suddenly came to my house after she went out with sis to wait for her dad to fetch her. And after i bathed thoroughly and all, ate nasi lemak and then watched jennifer's body at lappy while eating this one big bowl of ice cream. It was a bit like ben and jerry's but it wasnt. Feeling2 ben and jerry's jerq ah. HAHA. So in the middle of the movie, cuzzin went home. Msged bie and suddenly, phone batt maty, so had to charge the batt. I guess bie was angry when i didnt replied his msg and thought that i PURPOSELY dun wanna lyn hym. WTF. A few hours of charging and i quickly on-ed my fon and wished hym happy 2nd monthsary, but he didnt reply. Sodeyh bulu sia aku. Im shure he's still awake by now. Haiye. Sry leh bacen. :'(

Well anw, to my dearest;

I wanna wish you a very HAPPY 2ND MONTHSARY. Those 2 months that i've been with you was never a waste. At first i thought loving you was impossible, but i was wrong. You made me feel special again. Even though we fought for several tymes, you never failed to console me back. I'm proud to have you dear. And yes, i know sometymes my attitude is too much. Really sorry kay bie? Kadang2 pms-ing ah. Biasa jgk, pmpan. HAHA. Well, promise me you won't ever leave me okay? Cause i know my life would totally suck without you. Hahas. Once again, Happy 2nd Monthsary bie! I love love love love you. ♥

The best i ever had.

2009-12-12T04:48:00.000-08:00

Whoah, i managed to upload all these in just 10 mins i guess? Really, no joke. Power man. HAHA. Oh, hello btw. I finally went out with my favourite clique just now in the afternoon. Well, planned to meet at 2.30 but ended up meeting at 4. Ooooo, dahsyaaaaaat. Kay, actually, when mum got to know i was going out, she didnt agree to it. But heck, i've not been going out for the past 2 weeks man! Nabei. You should consider that as good alr ma. So, planned to meet aidi under my blk at 2.15. Yeahh, I WAS ON TYME MAN. Waited for about 10 mins or so, then ring-ed hym. He told me he was still at old woodlands area there as a few buses were jam packed with people. So yeah, waited for hym for about half an hour? Then met dina at the bustop near my house, and STILL WAITING FOR AIDI. After 5 mins, he FINALLY came in his shades, walking slowly with his nose high up in the air. Step hawtstuff eyhq kao aidi? HAHA. But when he wave at us like bapok, it spoilt the whole mood. HAHAHAHAH. No offence ah aidi! Kay so bus-ed to cwp to meet up with hany and we started our journey at 4. Whoah. Nice.

Train-ed to jurong and went to imm as hany couldn't go further. Maklom la, darh pokai. LOL. Surprisingly, each and everyone of us was groaning in hunger, so what else we were thinking? SAPEDEK AH. And i swear aidi sungguh tak gentleman when it comes to food. Kay then headed off to the so called "chill out" place at imm. There was this one foam party held there for kids between the height of 1-1.4m. HAH. It looked kinda fun man. How i wish i couls join. There was this one part where aidi overheard a kid asking the host of the party "ermmm, are you auntie or uncle??" Then the host replied, "im half2." HAHAHAHAHAH. Fvck. I totally LMAO when i heard that. He, or should i say SHE, looked sooo fugging gayish. Okay then we went back inside imm and looked at all the beds. So comfy. Tempting siak. Then window shopped. Aidi was sucha pity as he was the only guy there, so he was kinda bored when he had to wait for us to come out of each and every shop that were right infront of us. HAHA. Sorry la hor. ^^

Then we train-ed back home as dina had to rush. Unfortunately, it was peak hours. YES, you can imagine how packed it was in the mrt until my body was almost glued to the walls. HAHAH. Don't try to imagine that one la! Kay, then bie msg! Sonang aty aku. He told me he went imm too, tpi batang idong dierh pn tak npk siak? Pfft. Kk then alighted at woodlands mrt, and strolled at cwp for awhile. Bought bubbletea and went back home with aidi (as usual) as hany took diff bus. Fvck, we kept laughing in the bus like nobody's business liddat sia. Pikir bus bpk kao nyerh perq? Babi kao aidi. HAHAHAHA. We actually went for 1 round as we were too tired already. I alighted at aidi's bustop (mcm bpk kao peyh bustop jerq. HAH) and walked home. Overall, it was really2 fun to finally hang out with them and laugh like babi, like when we were in sch. Will really miss the tymes as we'll be separated in diff classes. BENCI SIA. Haishhh~ Im really tired now, but i freaking can't sleep. And now its already 4.37am? KNNCCB. Sooner or later, my eyebags will be conquering both my tembam narq mampos cheeks! HAHA.

Oh yeah, will be going out with my horny narq mampos bieee this tues aku aserh? Maseyh blom dicnspermkan. HAH. Aku rynduh kao la bacen! :((

Andand,

HAPPY BELATED 14TH BIRTHDAY HIDAYAH!

May Allah bless you always. (:

Kay BYE!!!!

Im tired of everything.

2009-12-09T05:00:00.000-08:00

Im feeling down for no particular reason. Something's running through my mind, but i can't seem to figure out what. Oh, and obviously, bestfriend doesn't seem to care. Fuck. Dearest let me down again just now. Pfft. So sick of it. Okay, its already 4.45am now. Im really tired. I wanna sleep. Tough day tmr, maybe? Haahs. Let's just wait and see.

P.s; 4 more days to it and you're still giving me this kinda shyt? GREAT.

So i'll crawl till i can walk again.

2009-12-07T03:56:00.000-08:00

Hie, heylo, ola. Sorry for the improper post that i've been posting the past few days or so. There's nothing much that had happened though. Well, seriously, i've not been breathing the fresh air outside for the past 1 week. What a record. I've actually planned to celebrate yaya's birthday this coming sat. Let's just see if the upcoming-bday girl cn make it. But i hope you cn ayye darl? I'm really looking forward to it. Heeess. Oh, and not forgetting, iskandar and naiim's birthday are just round the corner too. One's 11, the other is 12 and the other 17, respectively. Wow, what a month. Okay i really have to plan this out, like seriously! But, something's bothering me. I just can't figure out what the hell issit. Pfft, forget it. *squint eyes and try very hard to look at the clock* Whoah, its 3.02am. And yes, im sleeping late, AGAIN. Eyebags have really out-bitched me kay? For goodness sake, when the hell cn i sleep super early huh? Grrr.

Kay, i cn see that SOME PEOPLE are just not talking to me. Omg. Did i make the biggest sin of all? Gosh. This totally sucks. Imagine you've built a friendship for like 2 years or so and that bestfriend of yours suddenly fucking don't wanna talk to you and tries to fucking avoid you for no fucking specific reasons? It will definitely fucking piss you off right? I dunoe what this person may be thinking, but im just concern though. After that THING that had happened, i dunoe why this person keeps avoiding me. Maybe this person hates me, loathes the sight of me, thinks that i own a new "bestfriend", has a new bestfriend, has forgotten all about me, is now having a whale of tyme out there and does not fucking notice that i still fucking regard this person as my bestfriend.

Well, if you're reading this, then yeah. I don't want anything from you. You cn hate me all you want after that incident, but i just don't wana lose the friendship that we've built all these while. You always make my day, afternoon, evening, nyte and even pre-dawn. I love laughing my big ass out whenever i listened to your crappy jokes. I love sharing all the things that had happened to me with you. You'll always keep me updated with the things i wana knw and vice versa. But now what? You suddenly kept quiet and didn't even took the iniative to cntact me bck. I felt miserable and guilty, really, no joke. Yes, recently i'm the one who made the first move. But i knw from the way you respond bck to me, it wasn't sincere enough though. Why issit so hard for you to tell me what you don't feel right about me? Do i even look like some crazy mofo who's gonna actually scream at you when you spill out everything that you feel bout me? Where's the old you that i've known all these while? I dunoe if you realise it or not, but you've really changed alot, and i really mean ALOT. Haish.

Well, i'm not trying to make a big fuck out of this, but i just want us to rebuild this friendship back again. It doesn't feel right this way. Ya know, my lyfe without a bestfriend is never complete. I hope that you would text me, or atleast tag me at my blog to lemme knw that you've read my blog ayye friend? Thank you so much. (:

Wow, i suddenly feel so.. ALIVE. No joke. Too long? Too short? Suit yourself. I'm just penning down my thoughts and what i feel, that's all. :D

Tak mudah untuk aku lepaskan.

2009-12-05T01:32:00.000-08:00

What is it with love?
That makes me then breaks me?
When in love do I truly love?
Is it really love or do I think that I love?
Maybe I just love being in love
Or love the idea of being in love?
I spent my whole life chasing love.
In the end the one thing I truly love
Could just be the meir pursuit of love

I have heard it said
True love comes around only once in life.
I never believed that until I met you.
I now know what true love means,
For never have I loved someone
as I love you.

Because our love is eternal.
There's nothing left to say,
Except to say this one last word.
I love you more each day.
♥

So much for it.

2009-12-04T04:20:00.000-08:00

4.09 am, and still going strong yeah. HAHA. Fugg, its simply hard to doze off early these holidays. I'm still wondering what's keeping me awake. *looks up in the air with mouth wide open* Oh, and its already 4th dec! So im here to wish my dearest mama..

Happy Birthday!!!

I love love love love you ma ;DD

You nearly put an end to it.

2009-12-01T23:22:00.000-08:00

A post to hym;

Bie, those qns that i've asked you earlier on were not really true.

It's not gonna happen, really.

I had to ask you as i just wanted to know your respond.

I was shocked that you took it so seriously.

I thought you didnt trust me anymore.

I explained everything thoroughly,

hoping that you would understand.

Well, yes you did, but you were angry with me.

I can tell.

But trust me, i would never ever leave or hurt you.

Not once bie.

I hope it would be everlasting, InsyaAllah.

I Love You.

Dickhead.

2009-11-30T23:09:00.000-08:00

That bangla up there is dick. Well, i guess you guys recognise hym right? And, oh, wth is he try'na do man? HAHA. Kay chatted and webcam-ed with hym ytd. Yes, dick mcm fuck siyaaak. LOL. Oh, and he was trying to flirt with my sis by calling her name. Cb eyhq kao dick? Aku bagy flying kick kang, aru kao tawuk. HAHAHA. He did all those sex sounds and i was fucked up. Sucha sicko. Huahuahua. Well, this friend of mine here is interested in girls older than hym. So girls, any of you interested just add hym at msn alright. Thanks! HAHAHA. :DD

Oh, how nice.

2009-11-29T23:43:00.000-08:00

Well, right now, and at this very moment, i miss bby, very, very, very much. That's all. :'(

And again.

2009-11-28T03:21:00.000-08:00

Time check: 2.25am o.O Well, it has been a habit for me to sleep superrrr late now. Holidays mannnn, what do you expect?! And another reason is that i cn only use the lappy after 10 cause im sharing with sis. Pfft. So today wasn't quite a bad day though. Arul was back from n.s on thurs and the family feels complete now! Hahas. So in the morning i had to actually tag along with mum and arul to the mosque but didnt at last as mum was tired of waiting for me to find my clothes and stuffs. HAH. And then, sis made roti prata roll with hotdog, mayonnaise and some veggies stuffed inside. *lick lips* Okay trying to tahan right now. So fcuking hungry. Lol. Then watched vampire diaries at lappy and bla bla bla. Well, had a lil argument with bie. Was fugging angry with hym. I must say he was too much just now and im glad he FINALLY realises his mistake. Well, whatever it is, i still love you kay bie? Trust me. ;D Then for dinner, ate nasi briyani which dad brought home from the mosque. 2 bigggg packets of it siaaa, so that will be our breakfast, lunch and dinner for tmr also. Hah, kidding. Okay, then what huh? Erm, oh yeah, maybe i'll be going out tmr. I can't just rot at home and not be able to smell the FRESH AIR outside (step aku pat dlm jail jerq ._."). But the question is, WHO AM I GOING WITH?! Fuggfuggfugg. Nehmind, i'll text 20 people tmr and see who will be my victims. HAHAHA. Chiaoss.

Even when i pour my heart out to you, i'm not sure it shows, that i love you more than you'll ever know.

Hari yang mulia.

2009-11-27T20:56:00.000-08:00

Kepaderh muslimin, muslimat, musibat dan musibot di seluruh dunierh, sayerh ingin mengucapkan..

Selamat Hari Raya Haji!

Have a great day aight. :D

Yearning for youuuuu.

2009-11-26T03:39:00.000-08:00

Gosh, im bored, and i really mean BORED. Its already 2.49am, and i'm still not asleep yet. Baek ah shazz. Eyebags makin menjady jady sia. Oh well, who cares anw? HAH. Well, bie does. He keeps bugging me to sleep super early, but heck. Heeeehs. Setan siak shazz. Maybe i should take his advice and start sleeping early. MAYBE, it might help. Oh, there was band prac earlier in the afternoon, but i didnt turn up for it. This makes it 3 times in a row. Wow, nice. Well, i really have to go tmr. I hate it when my phone keeps ringing and they will keep bugging me to go for band pracs. Im sick of it man! Grrrrrrr. Oh, and anw, hari raya haji's coming. Nenek will be in k.l, kak yana's going melaka. Haiyo. NENEK, ORG NARQ LANTAK SAMBAL GORENG NENEK LAAAA! Sedeyh atyku :'( So its conspermed that on hari raya haji, me and family will be rotting at home watching tv. YAY! How nice. Finally, spending quality time together. Awwwwwwwww, sho shwiiit! *sengau voice* Mama's planning to serve us western food on that day. Astafirullah, buat air liur aku meleleh siak. HAHA. Oh yeah, will be giving out flyers with aidi soon, bt i dunoe when? Aderh upah babe! Hehehe. And at the same tyme, i also wanna meet bie luhrs. :(

I misssssssssssssssssssssssssss you larh oi! :'(((

That day.

2009-11-25T23:30:00.000-08:00

Hie Hie! Sorry for not updating. Been quite busy though. First up, on tues, i met up with DEAREST LOLLI. I really really miss her man. So, met up with her at admiralty and we were off to tekong. We lepak for awhile and kept laughing cause lolli did something so freaking funny. You knw i knw babe. HAHA. Then walked to triple 8 to eat at kfc. Well, her treat. Hahas. Thanks eyhq syg. Then met up with her friend to take smth. We sat at the mph near tekong and talked alot. We told each other stories and let out everything. Whoah, it feels good to be with her again man. Lastly, when we wanted to go our separate ways, we hugged each other tightly. Well, normal mah. Hees. Thanks for the day syg! Oh yeahhh, after that, went to imm with bie, aidi and an. Well, we actually went to cwp, but they suddenly wanted to go imm, so yeahh. We went to this mini arcade where we had to pick up the bears in the machine. Bie tried to pick one up for me but didnt manage to get it. Hahas, its okay larh kan. But the machine sucks ah siol. Makan duet org. Babi btol. Aidi had to leave early, so he went home first. But he was unfamiliar with the mrt routes until he had to call me for several tymes. HAHA. Maklum la, org kayerh yg darh lamerh tarq naek mrt. Bie told hym to follow the green line (padahal red line) and he listened! OMG. Bastard siak bie. Hahhh. And sooo, he soon reached his destination.. NORRRT! And there he was, lingering around at orchard. HAHAHAHA. See how far he went?We were really L.O.A.O when we heard that. I was glad that aidi reached home safely AT LAST. LOL. So gyeahh, we went home after that. Enjoyed the day with them though. Thanks eyhq krg. :DD

Andand, i love you bie. (:

Simply irresistible.

2009-11-20T15:36:00.000-08:00

Okay, so, im like suoer duper tired right now. My legs are aching non-stop, my stomach simply hurts, my lips are dry and my fingers are tired. At the same time, im restless too. I simply can't figure out why. MAYBE because i miss bie? HAHA. Nonsense siak shazz. But really, im missing hym. Its been bout a couple of days since i last saw hym man. *sigh* Oh yeah, i'll be meeting up with lolli on tues. Mansxz, i miss her so much. Its been awhile since we met. See you soon ayye syg? Nga excited lor nie. Hehes ;D Anw, holidays do suck big tyme huh. I really mean BIG TYME. Rotting at home will do me no good. On the negative side, i'll be putting on mooooooorrrrrrrrreeeeeeee weight as mum is always making us eat her mouth-watering delicacies. LOL. Ma, when will you stop cooking nice food? Perot darh boncheyt nah ah. HAHA. Okay, for the first in the lyfe, i feel like im missing sch. Hah! K bye.

You and me, forever.

2009-11-16T22:54:00.000-08:00

Bby, i really enjoyed the day with you. Thanks for listening to all my problems and stuffs. You've really brighten up my day. I'm really thankful to have you by my side all these while. I hope our love would grow stronger than ever. I really really love you. (:

I MISS YOU.

2009-11-14T04:47:00.000-08:00

I need you boo,

I gotta see you boo.

Im missing hym, like hell siak. Gotta meet hym this monday. Hees. Okay bye.

Well, was it for real?

2009-11-13T20:16:00.000-08:00

Evening earthlings! Well, i will not post a proper one today. Lazy ah siol. Okay, on wednesday, i had a class bbq. Fun like hell, but there was one part where it sucks to the effing core. I WAS ASKED TO GET OUT OF THE POOL AS I WAS WEARING SHORTS AND TSHIRT. Siket peyh bowdow tuh guard. Fcuk sia. I was alr in the pool, so what? Pfft. Then went bck at 10+ with aidi. Erm, on thurs, i went to watch 2012 with dad and sis. Fun like hell, but abit nonsense sia the story. Okay whatever with that. And just now, at 1 plus liddat, i went down my blk for awhile to meet bie! Fulamak, aku rynduh dierh mcm hell ah! LOL. He gave me a Mega Mac Meal. HAHAH. Thanks bie. (: Oh, and until now, i didnt even eat anything cause im just too full to eat anything else. HAHAHA.

Anw, to my dearest husband,

Happy 1 Monthsary bie!

I love you. :D

What's mine, is yours now.

2009-11-10T18:11:00.000-08:00

I'm not coping well with lyfe, seriously. I'm not pretty shure why, but i just feel that way. It's like affecting the way i feel about myself. I'm starting to lose trust in some people, lose self confidence in myself and sometymes even lose the ones that i love just liddat. Fortunately, there's someone i cn turn to despite the bad situation i'm into right now. I'm really thankful to Allah for having hym to be right by my side all the tyme. Well, not really all the tyme but most of the tyme. And right now, i realised that letting hym go will be the greatest mistake of my lyfe. Whenever i'm with hym, i'll feel like i'm on top of the world. I guess, nothing can replace hym. He made me realise something that has never happen to my lyfe before. Strangely, as many tymes as i blink at night, i'll always think of hym. Well, that seems to be my daily routine now and no longer soemthing strange. I don't care about what people might think of me cause i'm just too into hym.

He is, and will forever be a part of me.

He's my sunshine. (:

2009-11-01T18:48:00.000-08:00

Well, heylo there earthlings! It's been awhile horrrrr. And yes, sch's finally over mannnnnnn! *loud claps* Im not really happy though as im not gonna be in the same class and with the same old classmates. Haishhhhhhhh, how sad. :'( Well, what to do? Its fated. *sobs loudly* Kay stop it with my drama. LOL. Okay, my eoy results is a total thrash and im really shure i'll be in 3e4 next yr as im taking bio! Cool man. HAHA. Oh yeah, i will not be having a good rest during the hols as i still have band pracs. Booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! And of course, i'll be meeting up with some of my friends whom i've been missing so badly. I serious shyt need to meet up with them. Oh, and ms loong's wedding will be in 6 days' tyme. Wow, grats ah shazz, don't even know what to wear for the wedding. BAEK AH. Im seriously stressed up on what to wear and what hairstyle to do. SERIOUSLY! Omg. Confirm plus chop masai on that day. HAHA. Okay, at the same tyme, i also cnt wait to go to her wedding though. Gerenti fun siot. Amshar's gonna wear shades on that day!!! He's gonna be damn sachok man. *tahan laughter* LOL. What else ah? Hmmmm. Oh ya, 2e2 will also be having a bbq. SMGT SIAK. Cnt wait for that one too. Okay i dunoe what else to say. Oh, last words from me,

I LOVE MY HUSBAND! HAH.

Who is he btw? lol.

Go figure ah! Buhbye. :DDD

Well, its not okay.

2009-10-17T14:52:00.000-07:00

HEYLO WORLD! Finally, im updating again after 2 weeks of exams. And yes, exams are like over alr. WHAT A RELIEVE! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ HAHA. Kay, so now im with somebody. Somebody ah, beyh? HEHEHEH. Thank god he wanted to accompany me sia, if not, i dunoe where will i go. LOL. Okay, im like feeling super duper to the effing core cold, but he's not. WTF?! Hahahaha. Kay, will not be posting a proper one though. Im tired and running out of ideas. Serious shyt man. Guess that's all for todayy. Gaaaaaaaahhh. Really tired man. Chiaosss.

Here we go again.

2009-10-04T18:20:00.000-07:00

HEYLO WORLDDDDD! Ahhhhhh~ Its been so longgg, long, long.. that i haven't seen my blogg. Trying'a be stronggg, strong, strong, but the strength i have is washing away. HAHAHAHAH. WTF SIAL. Yes, i know its been a very very very long time since i've updated this blog of mine. Many apologies my friends. Well, as you cn see, i will not really be updating that much as internet connection at home is being a total bitch. Yeahhhhh, you got me. Aigggggght, so, many things had happened for the past few weeks. Be it raya outing, activities in sch and stuffs, conflicts (maybe not. HAH), accidents (MCM PHM), incidents and many more larh. And so, lemme story2 kan pat you all okay.

On 28th Sep, went for raya outing with my e2 and e4 members. And i swear, my stomach was really gonna burst upon hearing hafiz's jokes. There was once when i fell on the ground and laugh my buttocks off man. Serious shyt sia!! Aight, first stop was aidi's crib. We celebrated his belated one day birthday as well. Bailers were present too, but bestfriend didnt tag along. Yeah, so, moving on. Went to some houses including Cikgu Hasnah's. Her mee soto was superbb man. Hafiz said this "cikgu nyerh sambal kicap not bad, WORST." hahahahah. WHAT-THE-EFF? it was really kecoh at cikgu's crib. Then at aniq's crib, we ate pizza that his mum ordered just for us. It was really sweet of her. Hahahaha. Then cab-ed home with aidi. The driver was %$#@!*&. Seriously man.

On 2nd Oct, i had a whale of time with my 2 pathetic yet adorable GFs. HAHA. We planned to do art, but ended up strolling at cwp. How awesome is that man?! We walked around like some idiotic human beings and ate at banquet. We went to the handicapped toilet where we 'lepak' like nobody's business. Suddenly, one aunty wanted to open the door from outside as we had locked it. Luckily we stormed off from the toilet seconds before she arrived with the keys. Pheww. And then we went our separate ways. How sad :'( HAHA.

And today... *drum roll* IM AT THE LIBRARY BAYBEH!!! How cool is that man?! LOL. Sadly, nobody is here beside me. Mcm narq nanges airmater darah. UWEKKKKK. Kay, but its fun being alone. I cn finally rest my mind. Oh, and did i just hear that tmr is MONDAY? MONDAY= SCHOOL? Nooooooooooo. This cnnt be. Sorry but im not coming to sch. LOL. Just kidding. Oh yeah, exams are just round the corner. END-OF-YEAR BEB! Must work really hard for this eventho i knw its too late. HAHA. Wtf, i must start to be serious man. Streaming arh, BEYH?! Okay la, i guess its tyme for me to go. Miss me guys :'( HAHA. Will be updating 3 years later. Kidding man. Maybe next week? Insyaallah. Chiaoss. :D

The truth is, im not ready for it now.

2009-09-25T16:56:00.000-07:00

sry for nt updating for ages. been busy with things. im gona get back with more hot news. chaus people!

&& SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

& i chose to give up, NORT.

2009-07-28T22:32:00.000-07:00

Heylo heylo. Im bored to the effing core so im here to bloggggg! Well, okay, I WENT TO SCHOOL TODAY! Yay! -.- Early in the morning, i explained thoroughly to cher bout my absentism yesterday. HAHAHA. I aint sure if she called my mum or nort, but i guess NORT. I dun think she even bothered to pick up the phone. Hahhhhh, who cares anw? Then had math class test during math period. Yes, i must say that it was do-able. I love pythogores theorem to the core man. Whoah, and guess what, i didnt managed to complete the graph qn. Crap crap crap, 5 marks gone just liddat sia! But thank goodness i did the table. Hey, thats good enough right? Fuuuuhhhh. Moving on, homec period, did practical. Sadly, i HAD to buy apron and my 3 bucks were gone in a twinkling of an eye! Dammit. Pokai agy. Then i did hamburger. And i love noel! Hahahaaaa~ Yes, got to pair up with hym again this year! See noel, we're fated to be together. Awwwwww~ HAHA. Kay enough love story. We were both in a rush as we took our own sweet tyme doing the patties and so on. How i hate practical. The timing was absolutely fast and thank god my patties were FULLY-COOKED. At last, the burger went intoooooo.. Sat's and akmal's mouths ._. I got to taste it a lil bit only ah. Okay my burger tasted like tuna. Cool right? Huahuahua. Then science test, mcm finally gytuh aku dapat B. What a relief. Phewww. After that stayed back for awhile, and went off to cwp to grab a bite at pastamania with sis. After that window-shopped for awhile and went back home. Wow, boring day i must say? Who cares. Okay, im tired and will doze off anytyme now. Bye!

I will be dead.

2009-07-27T19:13:00.000-07:00

Okay. Wth is wrong with blogger huh? This is sickening man. OOOOO-MMMM-GHEEEE. And oh, i didnt went to sch today as i was feeling really weak in the morning and i was LAZY too! Miss me anot? Huahuahua. So in the morning, i lied to papa that there wasnt sch today, and guess what, loong called hym! PKKNNCCBLJ ah! Akuu tros naek sod siyaaaaak. But nehmind, mama would cover everything for me! Almk, sporting kan? Hahas~ Iloveyou ah ma! So just now, i woke up at 9 plus and watched tv, laid down on my bed and watched tv and watched tv. Wahahahhah. Mcm no lyfe gytuh kan? I know. Kay then at 2 plus followed mama to the post office as she wanted to make an atm card for me. Best perq? Hahas~ But then kan, the sad thing is, SHE KEPT THE CARD FOR ME. :'( WHAT THE EFF? But nehmind lor, i dun care. Then went to grab something for lunch at the teh tarik house. Okay just now was really funny. On our way back home, i had to actually held mama's hands as my slipper didnt have any freaking friction. WTF. And i kept sliding sia. The worst thing is, mama actually forced me to take off my slippers and climb down the stairs. HAHAHAHAHAHAH. She was so scared that i would fall down siol. How caring! Lols. At last, we taxi-ed home as mama was scared something would happen to me using that unfrictional slippers. Hahaha. Straight away upon reaching the front door, and again, mama forced me to throw away the slippers. IT WAS SO SADDENING. Another pair of slippers, GONE, just liddat. May you Rest In Peace, dear slippers. :'( HAHAHA. Kay enough drama alr. Eyh eyh, guess what, school's starting tmr! Like so obvious liddat. Wth. And im sooooooo nort looking forward to it. Homec got practical? CCB. Im so freaking lazy to bring those stuffs. Eyh, wish me luck ah for tmr kk! Thanks alot. :D

I have to make it happen.

2009-07-25T22:00:00.000-07:00

Sometymes i wonder why issit wrong for me to like or even love someone in an instance. I feel like, im just wasting my tyme finding someone whom i can lean on, talk on the phone to, vomit out all my secrets and problems to. That someone wouldn't even want or appreciate me. Yes, other people tend to find their love life easily, but for me, its a very difficult task and i seriously have to face many obstacles to find someone i really love. Yes, im already having someone on my mind but i guess that someone just doesn't even seem to notice or even care. Yites, i hate this. All of this would surely and definitely happened when im into someone. Why? Why does this have to happen? Have i done something wrong or have i created the biggest sin of all that my life have to be this hurting? Am i like the most despicable person on earth? Or issit just that i don't even deserve to be here? Im desperately hoping for an explanation. Yes, definitely a reasonable one. Honestly, seeing other humans happy is making me despondent even more. Like what people say, being single is easy, but controlling your feelings isn't easy though. Being attach is easy, but it's painstakingly hard to make it last forever. Im not trying to conclude that im desperately wanting to be in a r/s, but its human nature to have this kind of craving right? Somehow, i must be patient with time and im confidently sure that i cn lead a happy life just like other humans. They say, life has to go on, and i ought to have a happy life. I should be deserving that kinda life, not this. I'll just have to persevere, work hard, and pray for everything that concerns my happiness. The only thing im hoping for is for me to love and be loved. Im not asking people to sympathise me, im just pouring out my thoughts and feelings. Some of you still may not understand how i feel. Only Allah knows how i feel right now. I strongly hope that by doing this, i would feel much better. God willing.

Giankan diri.

2009-07-25T17:19:00.000-07:00

DAN TRNYATERH, AKU MMG GIAN.
*click to enlarge!!!!!

I like, Zhu Zhai Lee.

2009-07-24T15:01:00.000-07:00

I like you, i really do.

But they say, you ain't that good for me.

I wanna make you mine,

but i'll have to consider their feelings too.

When you passed by,

I never ever failed to look at you.

The way you smile,

and the way you walk,

makes me go high.

I wanna text you and tell you how i feel,

but i just don't have the courage to do so.

I wish you knew how i feel,

And i hope you would feel the same way too.

But i guess,

You'll never ever be mine. :'(

I want you to know;

2009-07-22T01:22:00.000-07:00

Eh hie. Im fuggin' lazy to post something long cause i just don't have the mood to do so. Well, yeahh, will be updating a proper one next tyme kay. I needa do some research on malay projects, so, i will be vehveh busy yaww. Till next tyme. Bye.

PPPPPSSSSSSS; i like you even more and more, then how?

Cousins loveeeee.

2009-07-18T18:05:00.000-07:00

Photos taken with cousin and sis. Currently at cousin's house. Thought of doing some homeworks, but ended up with the comp. HAHA! Kay, will blog again later at home, i think. Oh ya, we really laughed our ass out just now and now since cousin's parents aren't at home. Lol. Selamat tinggal korang!

Funfair per sia? -.-

2009-07-17T22:59:00.000-07:00

See that picture? Hahas~ Zenas the artist drew it for me. Thanks ah! I know it doesnt even look like me, so what? Got a problem? But to me, it looks like me lor, especially the hair. Wow. Okay, basically, today's friday. Eh, mcm so obvious gytuh. -.- So it marks the last day of sch. No, what i mean is, weekends are coming. Yeahhh, school was okay. Had cca photo taking at 12.10, that means i skipped science lesson! Happy gylerh maot siak. Photo taking was such an IPOS. Seriously, in the first place, they ask to stand. After that, they asked to sit on the steps of the hall stage. Dammit. I guess the photo is not gonna be as nice as i thgt it would be! Urghhh. Ohkay, skip that. Then after that stayed bck for awhile. I kept looking at this someone. Yeah, somone ah. Then went back home at 4+, ALONE. Timah and hany had photoshop course, dina had shooting course thingy ah. Sedeyh siyaaak aku aleyq sorang2. Aidi went home with his lighthouse friends, just to get.. gahh nehmind. Went home, showered, then slept for awhile, texted bestie. Guess what, i've FINALLY made up my mind on what to wear for rhd. Hahahahah. Prangai, padahal tarqderh org tanyerh siyaal. Eh actually no ah, havent yet. Still confused between two kebayer. Cb lah. Kay bye.

Put your hands together and do the oolala dance.

2009-07-16T22:43:00.000-07:00

Random siak. Baek perrrrr hany ah. Lol. So, hieeeeee. Not really gonna post anything useful or funny or anything la kk. Eh btw, today's the premiere of HARRY POTEK right right? Gerenti full house siol. I have to watch it!!! Kk, school wasnt quite bad today, and i swear i really paid my fullest attention in class just now, especially during math lesson!!! Mcm first tyme gytuh. Lollll. Then during science lesson, mr 2 got fed-up with us until he shouted mcm....... nehmind. Then aidi did something mr 2 did, and 2 saw it. Yes, aidi made a decision to apologise to mr 2 straight away after school ended. Then stayed bck with aidi after sch to catch up on some hmwks. I did math, well hell yeah i did math all the way! Aidi told me that i had change to become someone better. Wow, so sweet. Lol. Thanks ah. Had too much laughing gas just now. We did stupid stuffs also ah. Reached home at about 6+. See, we were sort of like having an intensive learning. Lol. Im tired and confused. Bye. And guess what, i dunoe what to wear for rhd sial! HELPPPPPPPPPPP!

Boring siak.

2009-07-12T13:45:00.000-07:00

Hie. Im bored, so i've decided to blog. Actually i dunoe what to blog about. Yeah, like seriously. Kay im going out later with iira to the old wdlnds area there. She wana change her denim jeans. Leceyh. And yeah, maybe buying t-shirts for myself. Of cause la use my own money. -.- And yeah, will be blogging again later at nyte. So tune in ah! Eyh, i did a new tagboard also sia. So do keep those tags rolling! Thank you thank you. ^.^

Papa and daughters day out.

2009-07-11T22:13:00.000-07:00

And finally, i went to watch Transformers 2: Revenge of The Fallen, with papa and sis. Papa had a good mood today and he randomly asked us to go watch with hym. Of cause he treat larh (mcm so obvious gytuh). Wow, thanks papa! Yar i know, a lil bit too late i guess? But nehmind uhs, at least got to watch it lor. HAHA. Oh, and i swear, its a totally-seriously-must-watch-movie! Huhu. Before the movie starts, we went to walk around cwp uhs. Like mendarqq siak. Then papa ask me if i wanted to buy cntact lenses or not. Then i said anything lor. And yeahhh, he bought me transparency lenses for 3 mnths. Not 1 pair only, but 3 pairs lor. Its expensive i must say. Lenses + Solution = $46. Sial larh, i didnt actually want to buy sia, but what to do,im really in need of lenses now for school and some other purposes lor. Most importantly, can see clearly!!! Kay then, watched movie ah. Had early dinner after that at old wdlnds area there. Then shopped for jeans, shoes and many more ah. Oh ya, papa told us it was a belated bday treat for us? Hahas~ And he spent $200+ on us ah, just the 2 of us. Really, seriously! Wow, shaziira kelojoh. Huahua. But it was fun, really. I really wana thank papa for everything uh. Father and daughters, spending tyme together, isn't that sweet? Awwwww. (:

Eyh, geyyrek kan korang? :)

2009-07-10T23:34:00.000-07:00

Eh? Wahh, finally cn put picture using blogger ah? What a miracle. Ahhhhhh. Okay ah, today was geyyrekness + mad + sasuay + shitty + full of conflicts + embarassing. Yes, you name it. But overall, geyyrekstuff siak. Sweeeeeeeeeee bo. Kay2 school wasnt that good ah i must say. As usual mah, skola manerh mau penah geyyrek kao blang aku? The first thing/period in the morning was eng lit. Poem reciting was horrible, terrible, miserable. We only scored 18/25 for that. Thats our class test 1 marks siol. But nehmind, at least we got an A1! Who cares if we got the lowest score among all? Whatever siak. Oh ya, congrats to Levinson Sunbae!'s group for scoring full marks. Eh, your poem rocks my pantart off sia! Then, eng lesson was taught by ms wang ke aperh namerh dierh. Whoah, she talked bullcraps sial, not even related to exams. Like like wtf? Then science lesson, thoo screamed here and there at the science lab. Wahliao, its normal for us to make excessive noise what. How to do experiment by shutting up your mouth sia? Cnnt communicate, then liddat how to attain a perfect experiment?! No brain sial. After that, i heaved a sigh of relieve as sch was finally over la! Had to go meet ms mas to collect n.e badge. Why ahhhhh? Cnnt believe it ah i n.e ambassador? HAHAHA! I know i know. Then went home, cooked maggi for myself as mum didnt even prepare a meal and then siap2 to go meet up with bailers. Aidi and dina also tagged along, as planned. Okay, reached the usual place where we always play soccer together. Mph la, where else. It was strange at first, seeing so many people there. When we went closer to look, it was actually akmal's friends. Then something happened uh. Don't wana elaborate bout it. Akmal stepped on my slippers then tercabot siak! I had to walk barefooted. Embarassing ah siol! Thank god hariz got extra slippers. Thanks ah! Went to meet bailers after that. We didnt play soccer, but instead, we played block catching. Hahas, childish or what? Lol. Tapi fun uh. Cb ah zul, scare me siak. Then we played ALIBOM. Huahuahua. Funny bowdow. I had to actually be the Alibom-ber? Lol. I keep saying no and shaik said to them "eyh jgn ah krg. dierh adeq aku siol." Thanks ah bro! Huahuahua. Then aidi had to be the bom-ber. I was the last one standing. Haha! Aidi cb siak, he told me i was too short and too small to be seen. LMAO. _l_ After a few games, we rested uhq. Bailers kept talking bout prison break and i kept laughing. Enthu siak satu2 bbual. HAHA. Then we went to buy drinks. Actually, somebody wanted to blanje me sia, but then tarq jady lor. HAHAHA! So nice of you, thank you ah. Then we went lepak-ing at the void deck until 7. Went back home with aidi and zul. Wahh, zul ambot tarq leyh angsss siak. We talked alot ah otw home. Aku dpt tau byk citerh dari zul uhs. Hahas~ I went back home wet and smelly as i was perspiring and it was also drizzling. Darh larh slipper tarqderh friction, anytyme leyh trbaleq siyaak~ But but, overall kan, MMG GEYYREK. Swee swee! Whoah, tarq penah aku tules sepanjang ginik siak. Hyper sungguh aku nieyh. *round of applause* Bye!

P/S; Bailers, laen kali mesti mau meet up agy uhrq. Hahas~ Thanks for the memorable day guys! Korang rock aku nyerh pantart off! :D

Tell me, what the heck is love?

2009-07-09T20:42:00.000-07:00

Eyh hie ah hie. School was okay ah today. But thennnnn, my stomach had moodswing siak just now in class. What else, FOOD POISONING AH! Got to know from mum that my whole family had stomach ache! Huahuahua. We ate this rendang and sambal goreng gravy. Whoah, siket nyerh sedapppp. Check2 the next morning saket perot siak. Kiwekkkkk. For 3 tymes (phm2 kan ajerh la). Not in school of cause! Not comfy at all leh. -.- Then after school, we had to rehearse for this poetry slam competition thingy at the music room ah. Whoah, guess what, we only rehearse until the 2nd line! Power right? Memang pon. Bsok good luck uhr eyhq people! Heeeee. Then i climbed on top of timah. She told me i was like a koala. HAHA!! I know, very cute siak. LOLLL. Kay, then, urm, did some "magic" videos. Shyt, i thgt of uploading it here but then phone cnnt receive the video. _l_ Kay nehmind. Then at 4 plus went back home. Stomach was in pain, too weak to walk. Otw home, bestie texted me. Ahhhhh, what a relieve. Then now still msging hym. He brings joy to me luh. Like seriously lor. Okay, plans for tmr. Will be playing soccer with Bailers after sch. Why ah? Girl cnnt play soccer meh? Hohoho. Yes! Thank god aidi can make it. Eyh but dunoe wana go home first or not leh. Scared mum nvr allow. Cb laaaaaaa. Ah, heck care lor. Kay2 i wana sleep. Tired sia after enduring this painful pain. Aperh siak aku bbual? -.- Goodnyte! (:

From me to you, sis-ey. (:

2009-07-06T14:00:00.000-07:00

To my dearrrrrrest best friend, all tyme secret-sharing partner, BIG SIS, NUR SHAHIIRA BTE MASHORI, i wanna wish you a VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Im very very lucky to have you as my sis as you're the bestest sis i've ever had in the world. We grow up together, through thick and thin, and we persevered till now. You know, a sis like you is impossible to find. Some of my friends are even jealous of me having you as my sis. Hahaha. You even sacrifised your tyme to help our family when we are at the edge of a mountain. It was very sweet of you. Oh ya, you were really really happy when I msged you and wished you happy b'day. Only i know how happy you were and how you reacted. You see, he still remembers you and there's still chance for you to get hym. Go grab the chance ah! I wish you all the best ahkay? Dun ever give up. He still has feeling for you though! Andand, even though we fought for no reason sometymes, i still love you lor. Like seriously ah! I feel like crying siol. *wipe tears* :P Not forgetting, thank you for keeping my secrets, probs and everything that i shared with you (the ones that mama and papa shouldn't know :P). I really do appreciate it loads. Once again, Happy Birthday Sis! I love you, till now and forever. (: