Saturday, December 25 1:15 PM
Aww isn't the picture above sweet? Elena and Stefan make a great couple. Hekhekhek I love them. I wish there's prom night next year for graduation. Well, FAT HOPES I MUST SAY. Ok hi good afternoon readers. First and foremost, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL CHRISTIANS! And also, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO FATTAH! Have a blast and don't grow taller anymore okay. HAHAHA :D
Alright, my days have been rather tough. Tough because I have to endure staying at home doing nothing when there's loads of homework that have to be done. HO HO HO just see how lazy I am now. My gosh I should really really stop being like this. O LEVELS NEXT YEAR AND I'M TOTALLY NOT UP FOR THE CHALLENGE. How can I change??????? Sometimes I feel disappointed seeing myself like this, not wanting to make the effort and always depending on others. I've really got to get myself back up and I want to strive for the best and get to the best Polytechnic, Insya'Allah. I've wanted to get into the culinary course in TP. But as usual, fat hopes. Ok I can't always say liddat. I've got to have confidence in myself. I'm always lacking in confidence. I just don't know why. I should be having tuitions but yeah, my family won't be able to afford it though, unlike other families. All so rich. Hmm.
As for today, I'm currently not doing anything productive, yet again. I'm not like others who can go out and have fun everyday. I want mama to be stricter to me actually, if not I'll still be the lazy pig I am now. And yeah, I'm glad that I can chiong my O levels with Zul next year. Hekhek. And hopefully we'll both get to our own poly that we choose to go to. I'm sure he can make it, but what about me? See, I'm lacking of confidence again. Aigoo. Alright, plan for this Monday is to go and catch 2 movies with Zul \m/ It's on him since he already got his salary. Alhamdulillah. I'll become a good girl and stay at home for these 2 days, that is today and tomorrow so that mama will let me out on Monday. Hehe. Ok gonna update my Twitter again. Paipai cupcakes! (:
Saturday, December 18 9:49 PM
Dear Allah, please help me go through all this sufferings. I'm crying while typing this out. I really don't know how to deal with life anymore. Please help me dear Allah. I can't take it anymore. I wish there's someone who can save me, and I hope that it's Zulhairi but now, he's the main cause of all these. I just want happiness in my life, not dullness. Is it really just how my life is supposed to be or have I chose the wrong person to love? I really love him and I just want the best for both of us. I know I've made so many mistakes to him, and I'm really sorry about it. When I apologize, I really mean it. I may not be the best he's ever had, but he's the best that I've ever had and letting go will be the hardest thing to do, and that is why I'd rather waste all my tears and try my very best to save this relationship which I really treasure the most, and I want it to last till we're married, Insya'Allah :'(
Dear Allah, please lead me to the right path. I'm confused and clueless. I don't know what's happening to me. I want 2011 to be even better than this and I really want to live a happy life and love the right person, which is Zulhairi. I want him to know that he's the one who lightens up my life back when darkness falls. I want us to be happy again, not always fighting and throwing tantrums at each other. All I want is a happy and healthy relationship, that's all. And not forgetting, I want a happy family which I doubt I could have like before, but I just want all of us to be happy, and not forgetting a long lasting relationship with all my friends that I'll surely won't forget. Dear Allah, I just want the best for my life. They say happy girls are the prettiest, and I just want to be one of them. I hope you would grant me all my wishes dear Allah.
Amin.
Wednesday, December 15 11:00 PM
"The joy in our faces are just priceless."Hehe hi readers (well if I have any HAHA). I is a very very bored girl here. Hmm, see the picture up there? That's 3E3'10. K siapa tanya hehehe. 2010 is nearly coming to an end, but I'll surely miss this year because this is the year where I totally changed my attitude when I meet new and awesome people. 3E3'10, a class that's not so sociable with other classes, BUT WE'RE BONDED AS ONE. Other classes might say we're lame or anti social or whatever shit, but what we know is, we're a family. Even if I've met new people, I've never ever forgotten the old ones. And yes, I'll still be meeting this awesome people in my class next year. 4E3 FTW!!! HAHA :D
Okay, today was like any other typical day. BUT, I met up with Hany♥ to TRY and complete our holiday assignments. BUT FAILED. It's been so long since we met and we kept talking and talking about our everyday lives, and I enjoyed her company very much. Thanks for the day babe♥ Well so far, I've been too lazy to do my assignments, and this really cannot go on. I need something or someone to motivate me please! :( Oh, I think I need a teacher to come to my house and check on my assignments everyday. That will kick away my laziness. Hahaha shitttttt what should I do now dammit!!! Okay, flea market at Scape coming up! Oh but before that, I'll be cooking at Kartin's house along with Sarah Sim on Sunday wooooo can't wait!!! After that, I'll meet Zul at his workplace to pass to him the food that I've cooked specially for him cheybedah HAHA.
Gosh, there's Band BBQ tomorrow. Ok, many not coming for it, so me too. Furthermore it's at Sembawang Park. Damn that place gives me the creeps *shivers* Okay it's already 11pm now. I should be sleeping by now!!! Goodnight folks :>
